bohemian // kamishiro rui x reader

𝐟𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥.

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TW,, ; MENTION OF DEATH/SUICIDE, ANGST?

Yes, this is some sort of..reversed chapter of that violin one?

AUTHORS NOTE; yes you are still siblings with Toya here, you are dating Rui, And Toya is aware of your relationship with him. ah, and you are dead in this one, Toya is the one alive.

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4 YEARS, IT HAS BEEN 4 WHOLE YEARS. yet, he did not say anything. not a single thing. he did not want to confess, not yet at least.

he knows his friends are trying to move on, and he is too, although he finds himself unable to move on as the others did, because of what he did.

he found himself in his house, isolated from everyone. he's locked out everyone in his life, including his childhood friends. he knew you were in a relationship, no? you told him about your relationship with Rui, and he accepted it. he was happy for you.

if you were happy, he was happy.

you were a ball of energy, you kept him company and talked to him even if he was silent.

he loved you, and you loved him back.

you've always looked out for him, but now, you were gone. and he misses you as the others do.

he thought of what he did to you every day, he didn't mean to do it.

he..was just stressed.

he was messy, his room was a bit messy.

his house was full of boxes filled with items.

he was gonna move out soon.

he needs to confess..before he has to go.

he can't, he has too much guilt.

he walked down the stairs, breathing slowly. as he walked down, he heard piano notes and humming from one of the rooms.

he stopped in his tracks. nobody else but him was in the house.

he was curious about who was playing the piano.

he went down.

and went into the room, in the middle, there sat a piano and a person there.

they were wearing the same outfit as you wore on that day.

your skin was pale though.

very..very pale.

you looked like a ghost.

I mean..you already are one.

he looked at you, silently watching from the entrance.

his legs started to move towards you.

now, he watched you play and hum from a closer look.

the person looked exactly like you, your eyes were closed, and the way you played the piano was the same.

by the time you stopped playing, you already knew he was there, watching you play.

"..."

"hey..it's been a long time huh?"

".."

"you should confess to them before it's too late."

"I know it's hard to do so, Toya. but you have to. It's fine if you accidentally killed me. I forgive you."

"but the pressure and the thoughts of them not forgiving you is scary, but you can do it, right?"

"of course, you can do this. I know you can do this Toya."

"Believe in yourself."

"just..don't be scared. I promise they'll forgive you, if they don't, then that's fine too."

"you must tell them. you cannot keep this to yourself. tell them the truth Toya."

"...are you sure this is the right way [y/n]?"

"of course, but this is your own path to take my dear brother. it's your choice if you want to keep it in or not."

"..what do you think I should do..?"

"tell them."

"but what if-"

"It's fine if they don't forgive you, the truth hurts. but at least they would know the truth."

Toya didn't know what to do. he couldn't make decisions fast.

he walked up to you from behind and hugged you.

...

you weren't warm, you were cold.

but that's fine.

at least you are here.

for years, he suffered without you, and now you are here again.

"awh, that's sweet of you to hug me. I love you."

"I love you too..."

you pat his head, and he sobbed on your shoulder.

"there there..it's gonna be okay."

he sobbed harder.

you comforted him, just like you always did.

he hugged you tightly, not wanting to go.

"hey..I have to go soon you know.."

"can..you stay longer..?"

"I cannot."

"I'm dearly sorry my little brother."

he sobbed more.

"I'm sorry. but I must go now."

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now the boy is left alone in the room. sobbing his eyes out.