Theory Of Love

ch17

Nobody answered me, only the sound of knocking on the door of the
Bath was getting stronger and stronger.
"I want to be alone."
"Get out now! I need to use the bathroom! Out of here now
Same!" The voice sounded very angry. I stood up.
My body was almost exhausted. I walked a few steps
And I saw the person outside.
"Do you have diarrhea?" My voice trembled and I asked him, I don't know how
Embarrassing look at me now, but too threw me in his arms
Immediately after seeing me.
"Silence, silence..."
I  had almost finished crying, but I  started again.
Fortunately, I have too and bone with me. It doesn't matter
How much pain I have to go through, they are always with me.

"You'll get too wet," I said timidly.
"Why do you have to do this then? So stupid."
"I feel hurt..."
"Kai didn't mean what he said."
"No, I'm hurt because he was  yelling at me. First I'll change
Clothes." I quickly changed the subject. Too nodded and
I let go. Then he sat on the sofa in the living room. when
I went out again, still sitting in the same place. But it's already taken off his wet clothes and thrown them on the floor.
"Do you feel better now?" He asked me without expression. I didn't know
If he asked out of fear or disgust.
"I'm fine."
"Your eyes are swollen, idiot."
"Er, sorry."

"Come here, let's talk."
"What should we talk about?"
"Your friend asked you to sit down, just look for it, will you?
This is really annoying." Sometimes I think too is too
Annoying. But, I won't fight with him. I sat on the sofa as he requested.
"You can say whatever you want to say. Let me tell you, I'm not
In humor for jokes."
"Kai said he didn't want to talk like that..." My heart hurts when
I hear his name.
"Really...?"
"You made him angry."
"Er, my fault."
"Third, am I your friend?" This question made me agree. "Please,
Look for me..."

I looked at the face of the speaker. This time, too looked more
Serious than ever, worrying me a little. I'm afraid he'd say
Something unbearable.
"What do you want? I can't stand it anymore."
"You must overcome it. Now you've seen it for yourself,
Almost nothing in our friendship. If you don't try to save, our
Friendship will be ruined. You don't want this, do you?" His words
They wounded my heart deeply. Yes! I am not suffering alone,
But bone and too are suffering with me.
"Sorry, I made things that way."
"Kai was wrong to say those things. But you too are
Wrong... People who are as stupid as kai need to
Understand why you're angry. He will live his life as before, but
He will blame you for changing."
"..."
"The more you can't control your emotions like today,
Worse things will be." And you know... While you feel hurt
Hearing those words, the person who said those words
He is also suffering..." Too was right. I kept my head
And I just listened.

All the chaos that arose today is my fault. At first, I chose to
Love him in secret. For two years, I've seen him with so many
Women, I've never felt it was a problem, and I've never
Thought of interfering in his life.
Until that day I ran into his cruel plan to test my heart, my
Heart was broken. And I could no longer bear the sadness. I felt
Like a fool who was betrayed by a good friend. I can only
Tell myself it doesn't matter, but it does matter.
This is why I can't control my emotions, and
It's also the reason I blew up.
"What are you going to do now?" Too's question changed my
Attention.
"What do you mean?"
"Your feelings for kai."
"I... I will hide this feeling and not mention it again."

"Have you ever thought of telling him?"
"It's useless. If I say so, I do not know if we can remain friends.
You should know your friend well. Has confidence in himself and
He will never let anyone change their mind. We started as
Friends, and we can't go beyond just friends." Like a
Fire, it looks warm and bright from afar. Why would you want to
Walk towards the fire and let the fire devour your heart?
"Er, I'll help you."
"Thank you."
"You are the kindest person in the group of thugs. All the
World CARES about you like a baby!" Too pretended to look
Disgusted and touched my head, and I had to pretend the same and
I looked with hatred.
I  really seemed to be an exception in the group. The image of the
Group is abominable and hot. They're all bad guys,
Except me...
Sometimes, it may be due to this difference what makes kai and
I distance ourselves a lot...
"Do you want to watch a movie?" Too  wonder.

"Which one?"
"You can choose whatever you want. I'll accompany you tonight.
Let's have a movie buffet."
"Really? Let's see it then."
"Once you have chosen, play the DVD yourself..."
On this night that made me feel sad, cold and lonely, I have too
Here with me. Did not use flowery words to comfort me, but
His actions speak more than a thousand words. On the saddest day of
My life, I have it with me... And dozens of good movies,
To accompany me.
Kai, please give me a little more time. I will learn to be
Strong in the coming days.
I will surrender with you, I will no longer feel sad, and then I will follow
forward