Theory Of Love

extra1 part2

And if I like the 'Association of Brave Husbands' page? I’ve already said I’m not afraid of my wife, I just want to know what those men usually do. Plus, Third never asked me to wash or iron clothes. Well, there was only one time he made me clean the bathroom. Oh, my God...
"If you sat here, just to try to bother me and make fun of me, then you can leave."
"Why are you angry? Lately you’re very sensitive." Are you still making fun of me?
"There’s nothing to be ashamed of, you’re just obedient to your wife." P'Cent started talking. Soon after he lifted the glass and drank happily.
"But all my friends think it’s funny."
"What’s so funny? I’ve known my girlfriend for a long time, but I’m still the one who does everything. Kai, people love each other not just for the title."
"The problem is another P', is that he has not yet managed to 'eat' his wife!" Bone! Fuck!
The bright atmosphere suddenly calmed down, and then the laughter exploded even louder.
Ok, my table is already the center of attention.
"What? My dear N'Kai is an expert, but has he not yet managed to make Third his wife completely? Oh, my God. Hahahahahahahahahahaha." He laughs for a long time.
"It’s because I respect him."
"Is that true? Hahahahahaha." Fuck !!! , the laughs are longer.
I almost got up to give each of them a kick to regain their composure. That’s because I’m scared. I’ve never loved anyone like that. I’m just afraid he won’t take it.
Once I tried to seize the opportunity after he fell asleep. Fortunately, I managed to keep my common sense. If I really jumped on him without asking permission, at this point our relationship would end.
"I mean what I say."
"Listen to me Kai." My dear brother bear raises his thick hand and pat me on the shoulder with a very sincere look.
"Love is not just about sex. Love is about supporting yourself. People love each other to find someone who shares the same thoughts, enjoys watching movies, listening to music and spending the day together. When we are happy, we share with each other and when we are sad, we comfort and encourage each other."
"So it’s not important to have sex, right?"
"Of course it’s important!"
"What the hell are you trying to say?"
"I just want you to know that it’s not the most important. The most
important is that your love life is sweeter, that you create new things. This is important. Have you forgotten this feeling?"
I remembered that time, when one night was so common. It was like making a meal. Sex was important because it was fun and it helped fulfill my desires, but for someone I really love, I don’t want to be like that.
I’m afraid Third despises me for my past. That’s right! I used to do that to a lot of people. And suddenly, if one day I did this to him, he’d feel bad about it?
"It’s not that I forget. I just did a lot of bad, really bad things, so I don’t want to do that to him".
Every day is like ... 'This world is beautiful by my hands'.
If one day my hands cannot help me, I will take two sleeping pills. I will sleep deeply so I can forget it.
"Kai, I understand your concerns." P'An added. For the first time, I saw your eyes full of sincerity.
"What should I do?"
"You tried asking Third? He decided to date you because he accepted you and your past, right? So don’t think about your past."
"I agree with that." Bone, who had been listening silently all along, supported the idea.
"I also want to know, I want to ask him, but I can’t find a good time. His birthday was more than two months ago and there are no special occasions recently."
"So there must be a special occasion to sleep with him? It’s so funny!"
"You’re not like me. It’s better to start without problems. I’m not the same as before."
"Get him drunk, that’s all." P'Cent said aloud and generously. That response made me smile immediately, happy and satisfied.
"Why didn’t I think of it before? If he’s drunk, it’ll probably work."
"Shit, it’s sarcasm! Idiot!"
"I can try, like,I  like the idea..."
"Are you really going to do this?"
"Of course."
I’ll take care of the rest later. First I’ll get Third drunk. Oh my wife! After watching the movie, you’ll be mine.
Just thinking about it turns me on.
I went back to our room with three bottles of drinks I’d just bought. But when Third gets drunk, my heart hurts, so I bought beer.
Look how much I love and care for my wife.
After swiping the card to enter, I noticed that the lights in the room were on, certainly the person who went to see the film had already returned. Looking at the clock, it was past midnight. The final session was over. Then, seeing that it would be time, I left the bar.
Third and I decided to move in two months ago. Although my apartment has two bedrooms, thanks to Too’s clever mind, he suggested I use a room as a depository. So Third had to move and sleep with me in the same bed, which has a special purpose of meeting the needs of the room owner.
I was imagining that everything would work out, but it turned out to be a nightmare, because every night I could only bite the blanket and try to sleep. So uncomfortable! I’m not giving up this time.
While I thought I went to the bedroom. Looking to invite my love out and watch a movie together, but what I get is darkness. Seeing a figure completely covered by the blanket, I can not help but approach to watch him carefully.
Damn it, he fell asleep! Not only did he fall asleep first, he didn’t even call me to ask what time I would return, if I was drunk or if I did something with someone else.
Why do I have to be tortured like that?
The more I thought, the more I felt offended, so I bited the person in bed. There was a sound of "Ah". The person in bed screamed and began to beat me continuously in the arms and face.
"That hurt me, you fucking idiot!"
"Why are you sleeping before me?" I managed to control, so I started talking to him as a child.
"The movie was boring, so I was sleepy. You’re back, so take a shower and sleep."
"Look, I told you..."
"Yes, but I wanted to see it and feel those emotions for myself."
"In the future, listen to my words a little, I still know what you like and what you do not like."
"Uh! So can you let me go?"
"No." I said no. I might not be able to see in the dark, but Third refused to open his eyes to look at me as if he was really asleep. And worse, he closed his eyes tighter as he spoke to me.
"The smell of alcohol stinks. Can you take a shower?"
"I bought beer. Get up and let’s have a beer together." The plan has begun!
"I don’t want to drink. I’m sleepy."
"But I already bought them. What do I do with the beers?"
"Put them in the fridge. Don’t be stupid." That’s so painful. Honey, are we lovers or are we still friends? Every sentence that comes out of that mouth, if it’s not "stupid", it’s "stupid". It’s like I’m not a human being, he scolds me every day.
"I want to drink with you."
"So we’ll drink tomorrow. Tomorrow is Saturday." After saying that, he pushed me back to bed. Okay, I give up. Tonight I decided to start the mission exactly when this person wants to sleep.
I can only comfort myself and leave the room. Take the beer bag on the dining room table and put it in the refrigerator reluctantly. When I went back to get a towel to take a shower, I looked at my wife again with great regret. Probably nothing will happen tonight. I was so desperate that I wanted to call my mother for some advice on how to arouse his instincts, but I think my mother would just scold me for it.
Well, anyway, nothing will happen tonight. So, take a shower and go to sleep.
As soon as I got out of the bath, I saw the yellow light from the bedside lamp shining as the person who covered himself with the blanket was sleeping soundly.
Third is like that. Sometimes he worries that I stumble on something and hurt me again, so he leaned in and turned on the little light so I could see the way clearly. See, how I couldn’t love him.
Although sometimes his actions can make people doubt if he really cares about me. He does everything for others, for me, for our friends, for our family. Is he my wife or the secretary general of the united nations?
I went straight to bed, crawled on the soft, warm blanket, and then extended my hands to hug the sleeping person. There’s nothing "obscene" here, I just want to smell you and kiss your neck a little bit.
Honey, you’re so sweet, I love you.
"Be quiet and sleep." Third replied in a tired voice.
"I will stop it"
"You washed your hair, but why didn’t you dry it? Shit! If you get sick with it, I’ll hit you."
"Using  what?"
"My foot," I said.
"This is so scary..."
"I’m tired of you." Third turned my face before pushing me aside. He stood up and walked to the closet. After searching for a minute, he returned with a small towel.
"Sit down. I’ll dry your hair."
"You’re so cute." I heard his order and immediately sat down. Even though he was still sleepy, he was willing to do many unnecessary things.
"How was today, did you have fun with Bone?"
"It was good, we sat P'Cent and P'An".
"What a coincidence".
"Yes, Third. Can I ask you something?"0
"Do it." His hand lightly touched my head. There’s no discomfort, not a bit. But the focus isn’t there. And yes, in what I’m about to say to the other person.
"Have you ever had unpleasant thoughts with me because of my past?" The thin hands that dry my hair stopped for a moment. Third stood still and I was scared ... so I kept talking....
"I’ve slept with a lot of people in the past, am I disgusting?"
I raised my face to look at his face. After saying this, I’m shaking even more. I can’t see  his eyes clearly. Sometimes I think Third might not be comfortable with that.
"It’s not like all the people in the world have to remain virgins before they find their true love."
That answer really lit up my heart.
But you’re still a virgin Third, and I was a fucking playboy.
"Can you really accept it? Wait, I mean, are you still thinking about my past?"
"People have to move on, I won’t remember your past forever, you can take it as a life lesson." He was like a mother giving advice to her son after his first disappointment. That is, the happiness you feel when there is someone who accepts your mistakes. I’m sure no one else in this world would be as good as him.
I also don’t want to date someone who is perfect in every way. I need someone who understands me and is willing to change for each other.
"So from now on, if I tell you that..." I stopped talking, looking at his expression for a moment before continuing. "... that I’d like to take one more step with you, would you be okay?"
Yeah, I finally said that. This is the first time these words are said perfectly, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever said in my life. Normally, in the past, I didn’t ask anyone anything, but this time it’s totally different.
"Let me be ready." It’s very difficult to hear a specific answer.
"When will you be ready?"
"Someday". That means I’ll wait forever.
I’ve asked Too for advice on this for a while now. Third, he’s a man who has hardly any questions about this sort of thing. He’s a good student, he has a good life habit, he cares about his friends, but he has no experience in +18 things.
Too once told me that Third had knocked on his door in the middle of the night to ask for advice and that the possibility of doing this to me was almost nil. Damn it!!! I know he really loves me, but it’s kind of pure love. He never thought about it until we had to deal with it.
"Is it okay if we do it today?" I raised my hand, took the towel off my head and threw it on the bed.
Third was silent. I used all my strength to push him to bed, look at him and recreate the love scenes that are made in the movies. Then our lips will contact and we can turn off the lights.
"What the hell are you doing?" You were so kind a while back and now you’re yelling at me?
"It will be an endless time waiting for you to be ready. Can we try tonight?"
"Kai, you little bastard." His hands are not strong enough, he even raised his leg to kick my 'little brother'. It’s not that it doesn’t hurt, it hurt too much. He’s not only using his leg, but also his knee, his hands are hitting my face continuously. I had to use all my strength to control it.
"I’m trying to fill a void in your life. You should be happy."
"I’m not missing anything. I have everything."
"But you haven’t felt everything yet."
"My body ... you haven’t felt it yet."
Thanks to Prestige[1], for letting me find the perfect lines to use and now I know how to take the next step.
After I finished talking, I took his hand and put it on top of my little brother and my wrist started to accelerate.
Third, you’re dead tonight, because now ... my love for you is already too hot!