Theory Of Love

ch13

After hanging up too's call, I stayed a long time
In the bathroom. Thinking about my own feelings and thinking about
Kai's feelings. I want to dispel the doubts of my heart.
I want to know... I know he CARES about me. But in what
Meaning?
Caring for a loved one... or
Take care of a good friend...
I began to fall into deep self-pity. Why am I
So vulnerable? I stepped out of the cubicle and looked into the mirror.
My eyes were obviously red and swollen. You can tell how much I've
Crie. How am I going to face my friends?
To avoid seeing kai, I decided not to go to class today. I returned directly to
Kai's apartment and I prepared to get bogged down and move out . no
I don't want to stay in the same house or near him. These two years
They have brought me nothing but innumerable sorrows.
When I'm emptying my clothes and my belongings, the phone in the bed was still ringing. The first three or four
Calls were from kai or bone. I didn't answer, I saw the
Telephone turned on and attenuated again. The fifth call rang
And too's name appeared on the screen, I forced myself to
Answer the call.
Third, where are you? Why don't you come to class? The voice at the end
The phone rang anxiously.

I don't want to be the kind of person who hides or escapes
When there's a problem. But this time, it's too difficult to
Me. I can't pretend to be normal in front of the people who played with my
Feelings. I have no way of doing it. I can't control myself.
"I'm in kai's apartment."
[what are you doing there? ]
"Packing stuff. As for you, please pass me the
Brochures after class."
[wait a minute, are you really moving? Can you
Calm down first? ]
"I move back to my apartment. Although the previous unit
It has been rented, there are some empty units on other flats."
[third, let me take you seriously. Did you hear or see something? ]
"I have to get bogged down fast. Anyway, we see each other in the
Condominium lobby after school."
I finished the call. I don't think I have the courage to tell you what
I heard  accidentally.
Because I'm afraid... I fear that if you knew, I could not do
It. A straight man, a man who's determined
To not have a love affair with a friend. Is it possible to
Love me, a person who is not honest with hus friend?
Can you accept such a friendship that must change for people
Like me? Kai may not have imagined that what he did
It would have such a great consequence. People who are like him,

A casanova, will never fall in love with anyone; And one person
Stupid as I am, he is not worthy of his friendship.
I packed my own stuff in the boxes, put my clothes in the
Suitcase and put the laptop in the backpack.
Although I don't have many things, it took me a long time.
Today's classes are still quite hectic, by the time the
Owner of the apartment returns, he may have already moved everything.
But what I didn't expect was that after half an hour, the
Front door of the apartment made a squeaking sound. the
A person, whom he did not want to see, was standing in front of the door.
Kai ran to the door of my room. His appearance seemed tense.
His face was covered with sweat and he was breathing with difficulty. It was
Obviously he had done everything possible to get here.
If it were the past, I would be softened to see it. I  could even
Consider how he feel. But now, everything is too much... Kai has ruined everything.
He used to say that we loved each other, that we were good friends, that
He would choose me anyway. These are all lies. There is no way i can be with such a selfish person.

"Why are you bogging down your stuff?" The grown-up asked. if
He raked the hair that was stuck to his face by sweat.
"I want to move."
"Where are you going to live? Now that your family is in a
Problem, you should live here."
"You can stay with me. I'll help you for a while." Too,
Who stood behind, interrupted the conversation. still
Remember the story we invented. This is no longer
Important, as long as I can get away from kai, I'll do whatever
needed
"Too, shut up! I have to fix this with third."
"Please go ahead." Too courteously and quickly shut the door,
Leaving kai and me in the room,
Other.