His Mafia Queen

17. Trouble in paradise

~~ Lina's P.O.V ~~

When we get back to the house Nicoli and I head back to his room in silence changing out of our clothes as soon as the door shuts "you still feeling sick?" I shake my head heading towards the bathroom "I just want to shower and relax." He nods walking over to me "then let's shower before heading back to bed for a while, but I want you to check with the doctor just incase." He kisses my head turning on the shower but my head falls back to Rico's words 'he'll be visiting you soon' then to Pauly's 'morning sickness'  "neonata?" Nicoli calls snapping me back to him both of us now under the water "I'll tell Tony to take care of the basic shit today, I'm not leaving you like this Lina." I shake my head flashing a reassuring smile at him "im just really tired, once I get some sleep I'll go see the doctor. Go talk to Ivan and get everyone prepped, I'll let you know how it goes." He sighs washing my hair lightly massaging my scalp "I know there's something eating at you neonata but I'm not going to pull it out of you yet. Just know it's you and me now baby not just you." He murmurs washing me up then himself.

"Nicoli.." I say stopping myself mid sentence "yes amore mio?" I take a deep breath steadying myself "I.. I.."  I'm scared. I swallow the lump in my throat shaking off my fear holding his gaze "I'm going to kill my father if it's the last thing I do." I snarl stepping out of the shower wrapping a towel around my dripping body, I walk out of his room going into mine and locking the door behind me. I just need silence while I come back from this morning, I just need to be alone. I slide on a blue lingerie set, leggings, a baggy sweatshirt, and my fuzzy black socks to match. I leave my hair to air dry after brushing through it, I brush my teeth staring at myself in my bathroom mirror.  There's no way you're pregnant.. You're on the pill  I groan spitting out the toothpaste into the sink before washing my mouth out with mouth wash doing everything I can to erase the evidence of me throwing up this morning.

I walk out taking a seat by my window watching the morning sun rise above the estate filling me with warmth at the calm sight; tears flow freely down my face at the thought of all of this tumbling around me because of my own selfish revenge. My heart aches at the thought of my Father killing everyone I love in front of me, I don't hold back I begin sobbing into my hands covering my mouth to keep from making noise, anger and sadness taking over my mind leaving little room for happiness. I look down at my ring completely breaking down doing my best to be silent and keep my breathing under control. I just want to be happy, I want to control my own God damn life! The voice in my head screams tearing things apart, I wipe my tears as I walk over to my bed sliding in under the covers wrapping them around me for comfort as I cry into my pillow until I'm fast asleep exhausted from my mental break down.

I wake up to a loud knock coming from my door startling me "what?!" I snap not in the mood to be woken up "Capo asked me to check on you." Frank says through the door "I'm sorry Franky, I'm fine I was just catching up on some sleep." He stays silent for a moment before speaking again "it's four o clock, Capo would like you to eat and then head to see the doctor before six." I sigh slowly sitting up "okay, ill see you downstairs." I grumble rubbing the tired out of eyes "I'll let Ms Gretchen know." He says through the door before walking off leaving me to wake up. I get up walking to the bathroom splashing some water on my face to help my sore eyes before looking in the mirror. My puffy pink eyes slowly fading but I still look pale.. maybe I need to eat. I walk down to the kitchen after braiding my hair to one side, I take a seat at the kitchen island where a plate full of steak and broccoli is placed along with water.. The sick feeling returns to my stomach with a rush sending me flying off the stool and to the downstairs bathroom where I barley make it to the toilet in time to throw up in it. The vomit comes non stop for a few minutes until I'm dry heaving for the next couple until it finally subsides."