↠My life↞ (poems)

All ive felt is reget since you left

May 6, 2015

You know that feeling inside your chest when you hear or see something you wish you didn't, and it just completely changes your mood?

I never expected what he had to tell me was that he was "breaking up with me". I was loss of words and breath, if felt like my heart was breaking and falling apart just by hearing those words. I still think about it everyday. I was sad, hurt, confused, mad and broken. I loved him so much... I regret not fighting for him when he was walking out of my life. I was stupid, I thought he would... Fight for me. And here I am still dwelling over something that shouldn't even matter now, something that feels like it happened forever ago. I still have so much I want him to know, I know he's with her now, but I love him.

I know I should've told him how I felt when I had the chance, and that was where I fucked up... I feel like I'll never get him back. I don't want to let him go even though I know I should, he taught me how to love, he made me fall for him just by being his self. I know he's my first love cause I've loved him from the start; he fell for me too and he caught me for awhile until he started tripping, I knew something was up because he started acting different, but I definitely didn't expect that break up...

And even after he broke my heart I still love him. I still think of him every day. I want to tell him how I truly feel but I think it's too late now... He loves her; he don't feel the same about me anymore, I can tell by how he walks past me and ignores me like everything we had never happened. It hurts... The sad part is when my friends ask me "if he hurt you so much why do you still love him?" And the truth is I don't know... He just made me feel like no one else could, I believed it was love from the very beginning but I was just going into denial because I knew that if I fell in love with him I would just get hurt in the end, I didn't want to get hurt again! And it felt like as soon as I felt like I could trust him and it was safe to fall, 2 months later he breaks me worst than I was before he came into my life. i fell and I am still here in this pit where he left me all broken and bruised...