Demons Made From Memories

2. Down The Rabbit Hole

He felt like the ground beneath him dropped out in the void, or the world was ending. Something of the sort that his mind would be able to comprehend easily, however there was no mistaking it.

Nathan Stern is back in town, has transferred to the DPD and will now be working alongside him and Connor.

He tries desperately not to think of it, tries to distract himself with his new kitten. Obligated to take pictures for Connor since he won't stop bugging Gavin for photos of the fur ball.

Meanwhile, memories of what he and Nathan used to do comes to the forefront of his mind while he sleeps. Leaving him aching in ways he regrets since, even though he is an asshole, the jackass knew how to leave him breathless.

However, he would insult him afterwards and kick him out immediately after.

Gavin hopes to everything holy that Connor never finds out that he used to screw his brother, not because he wants to ruin their friendship but because he'll find out that Nathan had made the Gavin Reed into his bitch.

He tries to drown his memories by resorting to drink, something he swore he would never do after seeing what it did to Hank before Connor came along.

He ends up drinking a bottle of whiskey every night, trying to bury those horrid memories into the deepest depths of his mind. However, the sinking truth he had forgotten is that his body still remembers exactly what Nathan did to him.

So when the bottle didn't work, he started hitting up various sex clubs ranging from Vanilla to BDSM. The latter seemed to appeal to him more, being able to filter out what partners you want and don't want and everything remaining anonymous.

His mood improves at work after having his needs met, and it doesn't go unnoticed as many people can't help but notice how Gavin Reed is actually not miserable at work or drowning himself in coffee.

"Hey, Gayvin! What the hell are you smiling about? You thinking about which dick you want to suck?" Nathan bluntly asked from his desk that is unfortunately right across from Reed's.

Due to some horrible luck or maybe the powers that be are despising his existence, Gavin has been assigned his old bully as his partner. Fowler didn't seem too happy about it either, but it was ordered and you can't go against paperwork.

Gavin ignored Stern, choosing instead to fill out his reports while checking the camera app on his phone to watch his cat. Smirking at the energetic fur ball running around the place like a crazy tasmanian devil.

"Seriously? You're looking at porn while we're at work?" Nathan asked, trying to get a rise out of his old victim.

Suddenly a hand clapped onto Gavin's shoulder "Oh wow! Is that the new camera you were telling me about?!"

The detective glanced over at the puppy eyed Connor "Yep, it's got a fish eye lens and rotates 360° so I can keep an eye on the little monster."

The older Stern brother just grinned before his expression changed after seeing his older brother, he straightened up and looked away. "Hank is holding a party for Cole this weekend if you want to come." He said with the same old cheery tone he always uses.

Gavin put his phone away and crossed his arms to mull the offer over in his head. "Hmmm, yeah no thanks Con. I'm trying to avoid certain people and the only place I can do that is in my own house."

Both Stern brothers whipped their heads around to stare at him, Connor's eyes wide with fear and understanding since he knows exactly who he's talking about. Nathan, on the other hand, stared since he didn't know that his partner was trying to avoid anyone in particular.