- three verses & two chorus -

-𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 2-

The next morning...

"Chuck I don't know if it's a good idea" I say as I hear her sigh through my phone "Listen, the thing is, it's gonna be awkward.."

"What do you mean by awkward Lana ?"

I purse my lips "I just don't feel comfortable with inviting a stranger in my house, telling her about all of my issues in order to write songs."

She casually says "Well, if you want she is giving a concert tonight, I'm going to ask her if she can book us the last places."

A concert ! I exhale "Oh my God Chuck, you're the best thank you for doing this, have you talked to her about me yet ?"

She thinks a little and answers "hm, yes I did talk about one of my relatives needing help but I didn't say your name. So now that the meeting between Jeannie and you will be more natural you won't get all shy will you?"

I smile to myself, she is right. Deep inside I'm still awkward and shy, no matter how many people recognise me or how many people I've met. Talking about my personal issues has always been hard.

"Thank you Chuck I'd rather meet Jeannie under those circumstances !" I happily say

"Okay big sis, it's not that you bore me to death but Phoenix just woke up and she is crying" she says with a faint laugh

"Okay chucky, take care of you and thank you again !"

We hang up and a few minutes later I get a message from her.

Chucky ♡ :
So the address for the concert is 2803 E Anaheim St Long Beach, CA 90804. I'll pick you up at 8:30pm !! Ily xx

I quickly type an answer then turn my phone off.

I don't go out as often as I used to, during those past few weeks I've been staying at home a lot, trying to focus on writing and producing new songs. I think a night out will be stimulating.

I spent the day catching up with the news, trying to find interesting subjects to write on. I'm blaming the news for not being entertaining enough.

I notice how late it got and that I should start to get ready, ugh why am I hyper focusing on songwriting

I take a shower , and pick some clothes. I love to dress basically, basic is cool. Actually I want to dress a bit differently tonight. I decide to put on some high kneeled boots and a short floral dress. I add some jewellery and put some makeup on.

*doorbell rings*

I open the door and see chuck standing there her jaw dropped, she gasps "Jeez Lana you're so pretty fuck you !"

I giggle "Fuck you too you're stunning"
we chat for a bit then get into her car

I say "you know chuck at some point I thought about getting back with one of my exes"

she hits my shoulder and I dramatically gasp "why would you even think about that shit"

I pout and think for a few seconds "I had more inspiration when I was in a relationship honestly I miss it"