Alpha mates |Namgi|

Chapter 36⚠️

"I do! I do Taetae but Yoongi isn't letting me-"
"Because I want nothing to do with you! I'm so scared that if I do accept you back into my life you'd hurt and abandon Me again! Now leave!! Owww fuck!" Yoongi holds onto his stomach, whimpering as pain floods his body. Namjoon is by his side in an instant, his worried gaze fixated on his mate as he holds onto Yoongi. "Hyung! Are you okay? What's wrong? Is it the pup?" Panic fills Namjoons body as the worst scenario fills his head.

Yoongi only whimpers out "I dunno" before another sob leaves his lips.
"Oh my God!!" Taehyung screams and Jin grabs his phone, Calling an ambulance.

Namjoon doesn't want to look. He doesn't want to. But his eyes betray him and they trail to Yoongis grey sweatpants.

Red.

Yoongis sweatpants were red. He was bleeding. He's bleeding. The pup...

Yoongi knew it was too late by the time the ambulance showed up. He was sobbing the whole ride to the hospital.

Yoongi was currently in a hospital bed, on his side, too numb to feel anything as Jungkook spoke to Namjoon outside. He knew he lost the pup. It's all his fault.

"We did a scan and...I'm so sorry Namjoon but the pup didn't make it...what happened? Everything was fine before you guys left so-"
"Jungkook" Namjoon breathed out, barely biting back tears "Please...leave."
Jungkook seems to get the idea that it was a touchy subject and nods, giving a pat on his shoulder before he walks away.

Namjoons tears spilled down his cheeks. Mingi- no...Namgi didn't make it. He wiped his tears before entering the room and sitting on the chair next to the bed. Yoongis back was facing him but he could tell Yoongi wasn't taking this well.
"Hi baby, how are you feeling?"
Yoongi doesn't answer.
"Yoongi?"
Yoongi still doesn't answer.
"I'm just glad you're okay.."
"It's my fault" Yoongi breathes out, closing his eyes which makes the tears in his eyes slide down his cheeks and onto the pillow.
"No Yoongi it's not your fault-"
"I lost the pup, Namjoon. It's my fault" Yoongi whimpers out.

Namjoon rubs his hand down Yoongis back and back up in a comforting way. "It's not your fault baby. Don't blame yourself for something you had no control over" Namjoon breathes out, tears slipping down his face.

Just then a knock was heard and Namjoon turns to the door to see Yera. Namjoon clenches his jaw and gestures for her to wait. "I'll be right back baby. I love you" he presses a kiss on Yoongis temple before he's walking out and away from Yoongis room to Yera. He spots Jin and Taehyung with her too. 

"What the fuck do you want?" Namjoon asks Yera coldly.
"I came to see how he's holding up"
"Please leave. He doesn't want to see you"
"Did he tell you that or are you only saying that because you're annoyed with me?"

"I'm more than fucking annoyed with you. When Yoongi asked you to leave and stay out of his life, you didn't. And because of that, You caused him so much stress that it caused him to lose our pup. Yoongi is in there, blaming himself for what happened because of You!" Namjoon raises his voice, his anger getting the better of him

"You have caused nothing but fucking pain and Grief for Yoongi. He didn't want anything to do with you, he knew that you'd cause trouble.
We never would have gone to Jin hyungs place if we knew you were there.
Yoongi lost our pup because You couldn't give up. Because you couldn't acknowledge that you had fucked up. You caused him more pain now than ever! You are the cause that Yoongi is in there blaming himself. If anyone should be blamed it's you! Are you happy?! Are you fucking happy that you caused Yoongi to lose our pup, YOUR grandpup!? Fucking leave before I throw you out myself. If I ever see you anywhere near Yoongi again, I'll tear you apart and feed your carcass to the fucking hounds."

Yera stands there, tears streaming down her cheeks. Namjoon was right. She only caused Yoongi pain. "LEAVE!!" Namjoons voice boomed with anger.
She quickly scrambled away. Namjoon stood there, still fuming. "Namjoon-" Jin put his hand onto Namjoons shoulder but he only shrugged it off.

"Yoongi needs rest. I'll call you guys when he wants to see you"

He turns to walk back into the room where Yoongi was in. "Yoonie?"
His voice softened as he walked to his grieving mate. "I'm so sorry Joonie. I'm a fuck up of a mate. I can't do anything right. I couldn't even keep our pup-" Yoongis throat tightened and he let out a sob.

Namjoon sat next to Yoongi and pulled him into a tight hug, rubbing his back soothingly "Don't say that baby. You did well. It's not your fault. It's Yera's fault. She came here to see you but I told her to stay away from you. Don't blame yourself, baby. It's okay. When you're ready we can try again"

Yoongi sobs into his mate's chest, his hand subconsciously rubbing Over his now flat stomach. This made him cry, even more, a painful wail escapes his throat and filled Namjoons ears. It broke his heart. He too began to softly cry. He kisses his mate's head and face over and over, telling him that it wasn't his fault and that he loves him.

After a while, Yoongi had fallen asleep and Namjoon was sitting on the chair with a blank face. Jungkook came in and Namjoon rubbed a hand over his face. "What's wrong?" Namjoon asked when Jungkook was looking at the monitor weirdly.
"His blood pressure is a bit high but nothing to worry about. I'm sure it's the grief.."
Namjoon slumped back into his chair.
"Is it possible for him to conceive again?"

Jungkook sighs. "Not at this time. It depends on how his body reacted to the miscarriage..." Jungkook looks like he wants to say something but he doesn't. It makes Namjoon growl "what else?"

"There has been a case where an alpha mate had lost the baby and..well he couldn't conceive again. His body rejected the omega instincts and uterus because of the miscarriage...After that, he was a normal alpha."
Namjoon closes his eyes as his heart clenches.

"If it happens to Yoongi...I'm afraid the only way to have your biological pups is  through surrogacy."

Namjoon shakes his head. "If it happens, I don't care. As long as Yoongi is fine, then I'm happy with or without pups."