Alpha mates |Namgi|

Chapter 40

Yoongi walked up to Namjoon, ever-lasting nervousness coursing through his veins. "H-hi" he stutters out like a high school girl.

Namjoon had smelt Yoongi the moment he walked in but he didn't look. He wanted Yoongi to come to him and say something before he looked at his mate.

He looked up from where his eyes were scanning the menu and there Yoongi was. As fucking handsome as ever. His hair was longer than what it was in the picture he saw and it looked fucking good on him.

"Hi hyung" Namjoon smiled. He wanted to get up and hug his mate. He wanted to kiss him. To love him. To feel his warm body hugging his.

He blinked and shook his head "I ordered you a lemonade...you always use to order it" Yoongi nodded, shifting in his seat "Thanks.."

The waiter brings Yoongi his lemonade and Namjoons black coffee.

They sit there in silence.
"So.." Yoongi breaks the ice.

"How have you been?"
"I'm good...I mean..after you left me I was in a rough patch but I'm doing good now"

Yoongi nods, taking a sip of his drink.

"Your hair is longer," Namjoon says.
"Yeah...I haven't cut it since.."
"Yeah. I can see that. It looks good" Namjoon smiles.
Yoongis heart skips a beat at the compliment and he can feel his cheeks heating "Thanks"

"Namjoon"
"Yoongi"

They both talk at the same time and Yoongi ushers Namjoon on while Namjoon ushers Yoongi on.

"You go first" Namjoon insists.

Yoongi takes a deep breath. "I know...I know I haven't been the best mate-"
"Hyung that's not-"

"Let me finish, please...I know I haven't been the best mate. I know that I hurt you multiple times, and I pushed you away without talking it out. I've come to accept the fact that I'm fuck up. I've blamed myself for miscarrying our pup but you were right. I had no control over it. I acted on self-pity and my depressed mind 4 months ago and...I realize now I can never be truly happy..unless you are with me...so if you'll have me back, we can work on this, on us, together. No more Yoongi running away from his problems. No more Yoongi acting out of fear. No more sad Yoongi. No more Pushing away.

I want us to work on this and try and make this work. And if you still want to have pups..we can apply for adoption or surrogacy. But please understand that I don't want to go through what I went through again. The miscarriage took a toll on my physical and mental health and if I go through it again...I'd go insane"

Namjoon nods
"I completely understand hyung. I won't lie, I was annoyed at the fact that you had pushed me away and told me to leave even though I told you I wasn't going to leave. But then I remembered that you had just lost our pup and you were going through something I could never understand because I never had that type of bond you had with the pup. We'll work on this together hyung but I can't do it alone. I need you to communicate with me.

If I make you upset, you need to tell me
If I make you annoyed, you need to tell me
If I make you sad, you need to tell me. Communication is key in a relationship and if we don't communicate, then what's the point of trying?
And I completely understand where you're coming from with being pregnant. But hyung, I don't need pups. Sure I like the thought of us having pups together but if you don't want that, I'm behind you 100% of the way because at the end of the day it is your body, and it is your choice. And before You say that it's not true, that I want pups, you're wrong. I want pups with you. Again, if you don't want them, then we won't have them. All I need is you hyung. I'll be happy either way."

Namjoon reaches his hand across the table, his fingers brushing the back of Yoongis hand before he's cupping Yoongis hand. "I love you hyung. You asked me to find an omega and to move on. But I didn't. I couldn't. Not when you had stolen my heart the day you said you loved me back. And I've only loved you more ever since that day. Even those 4 months when we were apart. You know..." Namjoon takes a deep breath.

"The day we lost our pup...was the day I was going to propose. I was going to propose at Jin's place but...yeah...it didn't go to plan.." Namjoon reached into his pocket and took the small dark blue velvet-covered box out, sliding it across the table into Yoongis hand he was cupping. "Go ahead hyung. Open it"

Yoongi bites his lip, his heart jumping out of his chest at Namjoons confession. He was going to ask Yoongi to marry him?
"I-I can't open it Namjoon.."
"It's yours hyung. Take it. It doesn't mean I'm proposing to you right now though. We're first going to work on us before I do that. But I want you to have it. So please...open it"

Yoongi reached out and took the box into his hand, opening the cover.

He let out a shuddering breath at the ring inside. (See image above)

"Namjoon.." He trails off. Namjoon takes his hand before he slips the ring onto his left hand. The ring fits his finger perfectly. Namjoon sighed before he laughed. "It fits...I was worried it was going to be too big.."

Yoongi stares at the ring on his finger. He promised himself he wasn't going to cry today but the years brimming his eyes said otherwise. "Joonie.."
"Don't say anything hyung. When I do propose it'll be with a different, more expensive ring. For now, that's a promise ring from me to you. I promise to always stay by your side no matter what. To love you no matter what"

Yoongi chuckles/sobs. "Kim Namjoon. I promised myself I wasn't gonna cry but it's impossible when you're being so Dann sweet and caring" Yoongi wipes his eyes with one hand, chuckling. "I love you Namjoon. And I haven't stopped loving you..it was hard for me to live without you"
"I know hyung. Jungkook told us"

"Huh?"
"Jungkook does Taehyung checkups. He'd tell them how you were doing and they'd tell me cuz I was living with them"
"Ahh.."
"Apparently you are a great babysitter"

Yoongi smiles "Nah. They're just easy to look after. Especially Jaehyun. He has his naps between 12 and 2 and when it's his bedtime he's knocked out by the third sway I sway" Yoongi chuckles "And Soobin is a great big brother. He helps y/n when Jungkook works over shift. He's a great kid. He reminds me of you"
"Me?"
"Yeah. He likes art and Music. And trees. Those small ones? What are they called..."
"Bonsais"
"Those. He likes nature and going out on hikes. So in a way...he's a lot like you"

Namjoon smiles "It's amazing how much you can still remember about me."
"It's hard to forget. You are my mate"

"Hyung?"
"Yes?"
"Let's go out on a date"
"You're not taking me hiking again are you?"

Namjoon laughs and shakes his head. "No no. This time it'll be a bit more romantic. Today's Thursday, tomorrow there's a fair at Gangnam. Let's go together."

Yoongi nods "I'd love to"