LEGS & FRAMES

CHAPTER TWO

I have just decided to switch on my phone and a bunch of messages came through, I felt a bit agitated because they make me anxious sometimes. Usually I always look for my father's messages but this time, my eyes laid on someone's else message. It read "Hey Ray! your mother told me about your situation, and I really wanted to check up on you. Are you okay now? please know that I love you and your little sister more than anything in this world. I know I can't erase the fact that you were abandoned by your own father who's pretty much well and alive, but just know that I am here for you, I love you and I accept you for who you are. You are my child.

Happy birthday baby."

I really could not decipher what my father had just told me but I can tell that the message somewhat buoyed me because it felt like it was that , that I needed that moment like it moved something inside of me, I know my father has done that to us - his family but he is also a human being he deserves a second chance and I think this is the second chance that I am willing to try to give it to him.

My mother , Michelle Barker is a nurse at St Luca's Hospital . She has been a nurse her whole life , from what I know and she was married to my father Nicholas Barker whom she met at her workplace working as a delivery man delivering medicines. My mother and father had been married for 8 years and been separate for 4 years . That after my father vanished that's when things started to change at home as my mom was faced with a lot of things - bills , school fees of mines' and my little sister's - Mica. There is a lot I can say about my mom because she is my mentor , my ride or die , my everything because of her brilliance and zeal the things that makes her the woman she is today - I guess mothers are the best. And we all adore and love our mothers.

I remember this other time when I was having a conversation with my mom and we were talking about depression , you know and how it affects a person's life. My mother said to me she believes that depression does not exist and all the people who say they are depressed are just seeking attention. I really was perplexed and infuriated at the same time because I was not expecting that from her of all people because she is a NURSE !! She goes day to day taking care of people and now what would happen if someone was admitted to a hospital because they supposedly tried end their life and she was in charge of that ,wait will she judge the person ? Or will she continuing doing her job ? My mother is one of the people who believes in religion and she is a devoted Christian. I blame that misogynistic , mythical book she reads that tells her a man cannot make love to another , a women cannot make love to a woman . It tell her that judgement is a sin but yet Christians including her are the most judgemental beings in the world . She is judgemental in a way that is sickening and would make you want to tell her where to get off , you would swear she does not pray , she claims she loves her children but yet body shames her daughter ? She tells me how I am a curse to her life every time we in a controversial conversation? She is the very same Christian that swears at her children ? Sometimes I would really wish I could take me and Mica to a place where there is no judgement and just full of appreciation and love.
I love my mother so much and I hope this incessant behavior of her's will stop and start to see us as her children. She should learn to accept when she is wrong and most importantly apologise , not apologise by bribing us taking us out to a fancy Italian restaurant .No she should sit us down and apologise , like a meaningful apology. I trust in the power of words and many say with just words a person can change the world. Knowledge is power. Be wise.

Now that I am 18 I think I should do a driver's license and take myself out moret often to clubs and all night parties , just to explore. After I received that message from my father I've been elated and so full of energy and now I want to text Lexi and Laurette to take them out to celebrate my birthday with me. I really cannot believe me Ray Barker I am finally going out after a long time locked inside my room. What I'm I going to wear ? Okay let me check my wardrobe and prop something quick or call Mica downstairs to come and assist me in choosing an outfit.