it was like a relief, a big weight lifted off of his shoulder, a freeing feeling, like he was finally let out of a cage he was locked inside off.
he had drank a glass of water and laid down on his bed, like was he just going for a little nap.
everything around him got unclear, but seemed a little brighter, like was he laying in a big flower field with the sun shining down on him, it felt calming
hongjoong had again texted the boys to ask if they could hang out, and luckily they all agreed and went to the location that hongjoong had given them, where he had put the present, for all of them to open together, before christmas eve.
when they all arrived, they had wondered where hongjoong was, that was until wooyoung read on the box
' open before i arrive 'they all sat down as wooyoung opened it.
first he took out the pictures and smiled softy, he handed them to the rest of the boys who looked through the pictures hongjoong had taken, laughing and smiling as memories were flooding back into their minds, wooyoung smiled as he pulled another thing out of the box.
' read outloud '
it said and wooyoung furrowed his brows a little but did as said' hi you guys, now it's finally christmas eve! after waiting for 24 days, you guys must be so excited. i know for a fact that wooyoung is very excited, hehe :D
i wanted to let you guys know that, i love you a lot, and this month have been the best month of my entire life, you guys have really showed me what happiness feels like, and what it feels like to live your life to the fullest, im forever gratefull for that, and i hope you guys will be too, and that you'll be proud of yourselves, because you made my life enjoyable.today i woke up, but went to sleep again, but the thing is, i wont wake up again '
wooyoung paused, shallowing thickly as he teared up.
"hey hey hey baby, this is probably some sick prank okay? go on" san said and rubbed wooyoungs back, and wooyoung then kept reading.
' you guys are probably thinking now, haha very funny hongjoong, i imagine san telling wooyoung that its just one of my sick pranks, he knows best how much i love pranks :D :D
and how did i know wooyoung was gonna be the one reading this up? i dont know but wooyoung my best best friend, i would hope for no other than you to do it, i love you so much, and i always had, you've been there for me through all of the worst, and just know that i appreciate you more than anyone or anything else, you're the best thing to ever happend to me, and i mean that from the bottom of my heart. '
wooyoung broke down, tears streaming down his cheeks as he sobbed into sans chest, san tried to comfort the boy, not quite knowing himself how to act on this situation.
"no, im done with his bullshit, this aint funny" yeosang said and picked up his phone to call hongjoongs number, but he got no answer.
he nodded slowly and bit the inside of his cheek, tears starting to show up in his eyes as he tried to deny it.
seonghwa was just zoning out, into air as all the other boys were crying, sobbing and comforting each other.
he picked up the paper and started to read the rest of it for himself
' .. and seonghwa, i met you just a few weeks ago but you, you made this so different for me, you were my first love, my first kiss, my comfort when i needed it, you showed me how it is to love someone in a non platonic way, and im forever thankful for you, your existence and everything youve done for me, im sure we will meet again some day, something is telling me that the universe will bring us back together, and i hope it does, because this month with you, is unforgettable and the best time of my life."
seonghwa didnt realise the tears that were streaming down his cheeks, it felt like he was trapped in a dream, he couldnt and didnt want to believe that it was true, he had fell so hard for hongjoong and yesterday when hongjoong had told him that he loved him too, he felt happier than ever before.
"g-guys listen" mingi mumbled and started reading up again
' one last thing that i want to say is that i know you guys will be sad, and i know you guys are probably crying right now but please , think about me, would i like that? to see you guys so sad, you guys' happiness is my happiness, and it have been since day one, so please for me, get up, hug each other, smile with each other, joke around, you know i would like that, and stay strong, stay together. i love you guys, and merry christmas ♡ '
mingi had stuttered himself through the last bit of the text hongjoong had written them, and wooyoung nodded at that
"i knew this would happen, but not so soon" he mumbled as more tears left his eyes.
even after reading hongjoongs wish, they continued to sit down and cry in each other embraces,
wooyoung got up and seated himself besides seonghwa, who had stayed quiet all along. "lets get up" he mumbled and looked at seonghwa "lets do it for hongjoong" he said and smiled weakly through his tears, and seonghwa nodded.
when the boys left the location, they all agreed on going to the blossom tree, hongjoongs favorite place.
they sat down and talked with each other, talked about hongjoong and their memories with him, they talked through tears, through smiles and broken smiles.
hongjoong smiled as he looked at the boys, before he left, he wanted to make sure that the boys were happy.
they were all cuddled up against each other, comforting each other with words and hugs, they were talking, crying, smiling and hongjoong knew that they werent happy but they were pretending like it, for him and that, made him happy.
"i-im gonna be right back" seonghwa mumbled as he left to go sit by the water for himself for a while, just needing to clear his head a little.
he sat down, fresh tears falling as he looked at the sea.
"i love you, hongjoong" seonghwa mumbled as he felt himself break.
"i love you too" hongjoong whispered
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