It started with a friend request

Chapter 14 - Past

{Everyone deals with emotions in different ways, some become angry,  some simply ignore,  some commit lethal crime and some people Just hide them behind their shadows,  ultimately losing their innocence.}

                               NATHAN'S  P.O.V

   

          The impact that the whole embarrassing incidence left me wholly shattered. I went outside. The night air settled on my face like a mask.

          Everyone thinks 'I'm a fool',  I wondered, gazing up in the sky. I felt lethargic. This was all because of "Miss Mayer"

       I closed my eyes rejoicing the mistral surrpassing me.I profoused out my emotions.  In this endless silence even the scream sounded silent. I was blinded by my past.

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         Pearl and me,  we both were 17 . She never noticed me. I was a shy kid.  I just wanted her attention maybe because I dreamt of being her friend. She was reserved in some cases but still an extrovert.  I remember the first day when I spoke to her.  I asked her for her math book. I was surrounded by her warmth and awkward gentleness.

          She handed it to me without any hesitation. we smiled. Her smile just made my heart skip a beat. I returned her book the next day and then it was same as before.

          I use to look at her wistfully and she always failed to notice me.  I was a loner.  Days passed,  weeks passed, I got engrossed with the locals. The badasses. This innocent kid lost his innocence. My own morals were inaudible to me. I enjoyed their company,  I knew they were wrong but somewhere I always wanted to be amongst the cool kids. I thought this was the small price to pay.

              It was mid term. There was a student shift. I saw pearl talking with the teachers. She entered the class and sat behind me.  Attention. I again wanted her attention.  infact I craved for it. But how?  How will she notice me?

           I turned back.

           "Poor little thing,  remember me? "

           "Uhh noo" , she sounded confused.

          "You will soon" , I grinned. I tried to be cool. I tried to show her my attitude but everything was so sudden,  I felt like a dumb person.

           From next day I bullied her,  teased her,  made fun of her.  I wanted simple friendship. All I did was messing up things a bit more. It made me anxious.

         I was exhausted by my thoughts.  The way which I was using to impress Pearl were just useless. The best way to bring things on right path was simply apologizing.  A simple sorry can set things straight. Worth a try.

          Next morning.

          I was drowsy. I had over slept. I hurried for the school. Already late.  I entered the classroom.  Everyone was staring at me. The principal was in out classroom.

            "Mr Miller" ,Principal said,  his voice a bit rusty. "I think I will have to talk to your parents about being a bully " A sarcastic smile came on his face.

            Confused.

             I stroked my neck habitually.

            My face looked like I was trying to supress the flatulence of panic.

          After that I was suspended. Maybe it was my fault,  but complain?  This is what Pearl did? She never asked me why I acted that way. She never asked me anything. She just made a random dumb decision.

          I came back from my line of memory. This is what she deserve. Revenge. Forget karma,  now I'm gonna' screw her. She will cry the tears I cried. She will crave for attention,  I craved. She provoked me to such an extent where I find my soul totally rusted.