What is this feeling?... ( PIP X DAMIEN ) || DIP

Damien? I love you...

Friday
August 24, 2012
7:00pm..
                          hello...Damien?
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It has officially been 5 months, and six days since I last saw Damien. Though it was the worst 5 months of my life, he still had a special place in my heart. My feelings for him have not changed not one bit. I thought about him frequently, and missed him every minute of every day.. I can't believe it's been 5 months already, I remember exactly how and when he left.
It felt like It was yesterday.."
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"Pip, get your lazy ass up! Me and Butters are freezing our asses out here!" My fellow friend said loudly knocking on my door.

Fellow friend as in being.. Eric.. me and his relationship is not the best but.. it has definitely gotten "better" well as much as I consider it much so. Thought he mostly only talks about Damien most of the time, he's still pretty cool.

I got up from my bed and let the two guys in. I completely forgot they were supposed to come over today.. I wanted to be alone today, but oh well.

"Tally-ho!!" I said in a fake happy tone. And welcoming them both in.

"Yeah yeah, tally-ho my ass." Eric commented before pushing me out of the way to take a seat on my couch.

"Hey! Pip" Butters waved at me and gave me his same old smile. I might not have Damien but at least I still have my childhood friend.

Butters took a seat in a empty seat he found, as well as I did.. Us three usually hang out most weekends.. most of the time we go over to Butters house or Eric's house. But I guess this time they picked my house.
It's not a bad thing! It's just.. we have nothing to fucking do at my house.

"Jesus Christ dude, your house is fucking boring. Wish Damien was here.. He was chill" Eric moaned and leaned his head back on my couch.
Me too. I wish he was here too.

"Me too! What happened to him again?" Butters added to the conversation about Damien. I can't even hear his name without wanting to cry. God I'm so pathetic

"He moved." I crossed my arms and titled my head down.

"Oh yeah.. he moved.. have you tried sending him a letter?" Eric suggested.

A letter? Why the fuck haven't I thought of that?! I could've have kept in touch with him the those time! I will send him a letter! I will tell him everything!

How much I love him.
How much I miss him.

I wasn't able to confess my feelings to him when he was here, because I was scared of how he would react. Now that he's not here, I won't see his reaction.. that mean I can tell him. I was dying to tell him anyway. If he was here right now I would tell him. Without hesitation.

"My! Why that's a splendid idea! I shall start writing right now! Oh thank you gentlemen! Thank you!" I said getting up from my seat and grabbing both Eric and Butters. Quickly and safely pushing them out of my house. I couldn't care if they were freezing, they'll live. It's almost like that one time the "pranked" me by leaving me in the forest all alone at night, causing me to catch hyperthermia.

This is finally my chance to say everything I've been dying to tell him.. he left, leaving me with a big urge to tell him how I felt. Him leaving build up confidence, and now I'm ready to let it all out. thank you Jesus!
Wait a minute.. I don't believe in Jesus..

I ripped out a paper from my journal and strayed writing!..

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"Damien!~ you got a letterrr!!" ———
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