What is this feeling?... ( PIP X DAMIEN ) || DIP

Last days

I stared at pip just wanting to be held In his arms and cry my eyes out, he is the only person who actually loved and cared for me!.. The only person who accepted me.. my first true love.

  —— I'm sorry...pip, but... we still have a couple days until I yk leave... we can do whatever you want to do and we can go to.. to our favorite hangouts.. and I'll buy you as much ice cream as you want.. like that last time you had to much sugar and.. you ran everywhere! Until you ran out of energy! We can watch the sun rise and- —
     "Damien.. it's okay.. no need to worry, we can do everything on your list.." pip interrupted me, placing his hand on my hand.. i could already feel a tear appear ready to fall down my cheek,  "hehe.. yeah.. and beside my dads plan will probably fail like it always does... and I'll come back!" I wiped my tear and held onto his hand tight "yeah!.." he agreed.. he is so cute.. i don't want to leave him.. i love- I'm in LOVE with him.. i would kill for him.. like that Eric Cartman guy.. but unfortunately he only got fire rashes..next time I'll kill him.. i could feel my heartbeat.. faster and faster every time i look at him.. but I didn't care anymore.. so what if he knows if i still like him? It's not like it's not the first time I tell him..
*pips pov*
When Damien told me those words my heart shattered.. was he really leaving? He can't go! I-I love him! I love him... so much.. he.. he made me the happiest I've been in been in years.. my only true friend.. to my lover.. hearing that he will be leaving.. it's just.. my heart.. it hurts.. My eyes started to tear up.. he doesn't even know how much I love him! And he's leaving?! I-I I can't just tell him.. I lost my chance with him.. I will just have to live with the fact.. and suck it up.. he doesn't like me,
—— and I can't do anything about it.

I let my tear fall.. heartbroken.. all the sad thoughts feeling my head.. I guess I'll just keep my feelings for myself.. that's what I always do.. stay silent and say nothing.. I guess it's for the better. ——

I grab Damien hand and gave him a charming smile.. though I felt like crying right into his arms.. I felt so pathetic, my whole body was about to collapse and.. my whole face looked like a tomato! Oh bother..."what.. what would you like to do now?" I asked him wanting to brighten up the mood of this whole.. situation hehe I must spend the most possible time with him! For memories! Just me and my fellow.. soulmate

Sorry this chapter is short I have NO motivation to make it longer😪