Bittersweet

chapter four

I should be jumping with glee right now I finally have the boy I've fallen for cuddled in my bed, the reason sucks away all that joy though. I hold the sleeping boy tighter trying to fall asleep right next to him but the burning sensation in my throat reminds me I am not allowed to enjoy this. the sun is setting casting a golden stream of light over Hoseok making his sleeping body glow. he looks like a fallen angel one I cannot have one I cannot should not corrupt. He stirs a little hair fluttering in his face I move softly to tuck some behind his ear but tear my hand away when I hear someone clearing their throat by the door. I look up to see Jin with his arms crossed. He starts to whisper "what is Hoseok doing in your bed?" I'm surprised Taehyung hasn't told Jin yet they've always been close. "He and Tae got into it so he came here" I shrug my one free arm. He just nods "well wake him up I've started dinner it's almost done" he disappears into the dark shadow of the hallway. I look at the angel boy not wanting to disturb him when he looks so peaceful but I must. I shake him lightly until he opens his eyes. the way he stares at me and cracks a small smile makes me choke back another petal. "Hello," he says "hey" I smile, "Jin says dinner is ready" I add his smile grows wider, and jumps up "yes Jins cooking" he rushes out the door leaving me to mourn the moment we just had. I slowly get up and make my way to the bathroom releasing all the built-up petals the moment caused. I close my eyes and tilt my head back on the cold tiled wall attempting to regulate my breathing. After a while, Namjoon comes in looking at the petals in the toilet and me breathing shaggily on the floor. He was most likely sent to see what was taking so long or to make sure I haven't died. "Do you need the mask?" I shake my head and with his help stand up. "I see you've gotten buffer," I say with a chuckle. Joon has always been a built guy but more recently he's been working out more. Don't tell Jin but I had a small crush on him when I first met him as Jin's roommate but after hearing Jin gush on and on about him I realized my crush was misplaced whereas his looks drew me in and probably a lot of others his mind, clumsiness, and his soft words drew in Jin and that's why they're perfect for each other. Whilst lost in my thoughts I don't realize Namjoon has already helped me to the edge of the dining room just out of sight. I quickly remove my arm from over his shoulder and fix myself. He shoots a worried glance at me once more before entering the room with a smile. I follow him a minute after taking my usual place at the table. "Hey, what took you so long?" Hoseok asks. I see sauce already on the chopsticks he holds I chuckle he just couldn't wait to taste. "Just needed to use the bathroom don't worry" Jin gives me a knowing glance I pay him no mind. after dinner, Jin decides it's time to hear what happened between Taehyung and Hoseok. which means he shooed me and Namjoon away into the living room. all we can hear are hushed voices and the occasional sob from Hobi. As they wrap up, my phone starts ringing and it's someone I haven't heard from in ages and a person I don't know if I want to hear from. 

I wonder whose calling yoongi  ;) - ash