Tricia Robredo Oneshots

𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑

TRICIA ROBREDO ONESHOTS

LOVING YOU FOREVER

(Suicide warning: Wag niyong basahin if hindi niyo kaya)

In this story, Yn has been having physiological issues while Tricia is her girlfriend.

TRICIA'S POV:

"Sinta?" I said to the girl who is laying down me.

"Hmm?" Y/n replied in a nervous manner.

I held her hand to calm her down while fondling her hair and then said "shhh kalma mahal, nandito lang ako sa tabi mo and I will never ever leave your side, let those bad thoughts na nasa utak mo ngayon mawala. " 

"Promise mo yan?" Y/n answered as she gripped onto my hand.

"Promise!" I said as I kissed the side of her head and put her to sleep.

Little background to was happend ky Y/N:

Y/n has been having these attacks since high school pero lately lang siya nag pa checkup about it and it turns out she has been diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks disorders in which Anxiety, is an increase feeling of excessive fear or discomfort as a result of a triggering attack while panic attacks on the other hand occur randomly. The symptoms of both attacks come out of the blue. 

I DONT FEEL ENOUGH

HINDI AKO BELONG DITO

BAKIT AKO NALANG LAGING PINAPAGALITAN 

WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE ME

WALA NA AKONG GINAWANG TAMA

I DONT FEEL LOVED

Those are the words that have been repeating in my head as weel as the tears from my eyes fell down onto my face at this very moment. I have been so stressed with work lately because my workload has been piling up. As I kept on crying, I felt an arm being wrapped around my waist.

 And evetime she does that I feel at home, she is and will forever be my home and kapag nandyan siya nawawala na lahat ng pagod at stress na nararamdaman ko.

PRESENT:

Yn's illness worsened which made her question about her being in this world and about what will happen to her relationship with Tricia.

"Sinta?" Tricia said in a concerned manner.

"Yes my sinta?" I then replied in confusion.

"Okay ka lang ba sinta? You don't seem fine kase eh? Is there a problem in your workplace ba ulit? Are the attacks back again ba? What's wrong with you sinta? Please tell me." She then blurted out in fear.

"Sinta don't worry okay lang ako! Look at me I am healthy and energetic! Diba nga sabi ni doc pagaling na daw ako, please sinta don't worry to much about me, I am fine okay?" I said in reassurance as I kissed her forehead.

"Okay Sinta if you say so aalis na ako para pumunta sa hospital!" Tricia then said.

"Byeee Sinta, alagaan mo sarili mo and wag na wag kang magpapalipas ng gutom ah! I love you!" I said while kissing her lips.

"Sige na Sinta male-late na ako nito, byeeeeeee sinta" She said with full joy.

YN'S POV (PAGAKATAPOS UMALIS NI TRICIA)

Yes I lied, I lied to her saying that sabi ng doctor saakin na gagaling na ako which is hindi naman katotohanan. Last 2 weeks ago, I went to my doctor for my regular checkup and then after niya akong chineck lumabas na kaagad yung result and sabi niya saakin is 

"Lumala yung sakit mo, it turns out na yung mga meds na pinapainom ko sayo ay mas nagpalala ng sakit mo and mamatay ka in a few months or kungbaga bilang nalang ang mga panahon mo dito sa lupa, I am so sorry Y/n I did my best to be your doctor."

Ayokong iwanan ka my sinta pero lumala talaga ang aking karamdaman, ayoko yung bigla nalang akong mahihimatay sa harap mo kaya ngayon ako nalang ang papatay sa sarili ko para hindi mo na ako pro-problemahin. Dagdag lang ako sa problema mo sinta eh.

I love you sinta! Mahal na Mahal kita.

Pagkatapos ng ilang minuto sinakal na ni yn ang kanyang sarili at humandusay na ang kanyang katawan sa sahig na punong puno ng dugo.

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Pagdating ni Tricia galing trabaho ay ang una niyang nakita niya ang dugo na galing sa kanyang minamahal at ang ginamit nito para patayin ang sarili. Habang humagolgol ito sa iyak ay may nakita itong sticky note na may nakalagay na sulat at agad niya tiong binasya. 

Note na Iniwan ni Yn para ky Tricia: "Sinta? I am sorry na ako pa yung naging jowa mo out of all the people in this planet earth ako pa, you loved someone na who is diagnosed with anxiety and panic attacks disorders. Hindi ako yung taong para sayo Tri, marami akong mga pagkukulang at mga sakit na iininda ngunit saakin ka parin natatili, every step of my theraphy nandoon ka, through my ups and downs in life you stayed with me kahit na gustong gusto ko nang sumuko. 

Sorry din dahil nag singungaling ako na gumagaling na ako, Hindi naman ako gumaling sinta eh, mas lumala pa nga daw nung imunom ako ng gamot na binigay niya saakin. Dumadagdag lang kase ako sa mga problema mo mahal kaya mas mabuting tapusin ko na ito para hindi na kita maabala. Paalam sinta, I love you and take care. Nagmamahal- Iyong Sinta"

If maibabalik ko pa sana ang oras, sana naisabi ko lang sayo kung gaano kita kamahal at sinagot man lang sana kita pabalik ng I love you too

Mahal na mahal kita Y/n, as sabi nga sa kanta diba : "Mahal na kita sa paraan na ako lang ang nakaka-alam"

Mahal na mahal kita sinta, wala na akong ibang iibigin pa kundi ikaw lamang,

Ikaw lang tinitubok ng puso ko kahit maraming taong umaaligid saakin para makuha ang puso ko, hindi ko hahayaang kalimutan nalang lahat ng ating pinagsamahan dahil Ikaw mismo ang nagpakita saakin kung ano nga ba ang kahulugan and pano magmahal

Sinta Please wag mo akong iwan ng basta basta lang

I love you today, tomorrow, and forever sinta, you can now rest, Tricia said as she kissed Y/n's forehead.