Deep down in the back of my head I've always felt like I had been missing something or someone. I never understood why I felt that or why I even cared about it as I grew up. Until I met him.
The next morning I woke up full of butterflies from the night before it was something I had never felt before considering it was well my first time, with my parents being very over protective and me not being very soical I never really had a proper boyfriend. Sure I have had boys come to me but we never were offical they just wanted well you know. A part of me is scolding me for doing it with a man I had known for almost a month but I don't know how to explain it when I am with him it feels like I have known him forever and its just easy to be around him that I just trust him. When I opened my eyes I noticed Jungkook was not in the bed, I sat up and stretched before grabbing my robe and walking to the kitchen. My heart stop slightly when I saw him wearing his black jeans but shirtless and leaning forward against the kitchen counter looking like he was writing something. I slowly walked over to him and hugged him from behind, only to hear him sigh and turn around to face me. He gave me a small hug before pushing me away slightly, I tilted my head looking at him confused while he took a deep breath before speaking.
"Chloe... I can't alright" he said softly while looking at me,
"What? what are you talking about?" I answered still confused, he started putting on his shirt and spoke again.
"This Chloe, we never should have done that. It is not professianal" he spoke alittle louder, I could feel saddness fill my body remembering the moment he told me he loved me last night and all the love he showed me.
"What are you saying Jungkook?" I asked trying to comfirm and with that he turned to me and looked into my eyes.
"It was a mistake Chloe" came out of his mouth, while the saddness I felt soon turned to anger.
"Are you kidding me? So what were you doing huh using me? Charming me with you stupid smile and your good looks? Well congradulations you were able to do what the others couldn't and that was getting me into bed, ugh I trusted you! I trusted you and your just a player, how many other girls have you kissed?" I lashed out in anger catching him off guard, he looked away and put his hand on the doornob.
"I have only kissed you Chloe and you just don't understand and I don't think you ever will" he said before opening the door and just leaving. As soon as the door closed the tears fell from my eyes and my knees gave out while I cried. Jack soon came up to me and licked my face as I wrapped my arms around my dog and just hugged him letting the tears out. I stood up and wipes my eyes when the anger kicked in, I never should have trusted him so easily.. but I couldn't help it and I have no idea why and it was driving me crazy! Eventually I pulled myself together as I had a job to do, I got myself ready and went to work luckily the guys had interviews to do so I didn't see him for the rest of the day. That night I was a mixture of emotions I was hurt, sad and angry why would he do that to me? What did I do? and much more questions spun around my head taunting me. Once again I could the voice of the boy start to fade and I didn't understand why or who he was or meant.
Going back to work was on painful when it was time for another photoshoot he ignored me and the worst part was he went with Ryu instead. I sat at my station feeling well heartbroken when I felt a tap on my shoulder "Chloe don't cry.." and soft voice said, "yeah you look better with a smile" another voice followed. I looked up to see V and Jimin standing there smiling at me while offering there hands to help me up, I took there hands and they helped me up to my feet. "Come on we are going to work with you today and its going to be fun okay?" Jimin said while skipping over to the set, "Yea we can be fun too" V said following Jimin. I smiled slightly and walked over to the camera to begin only for Jimin to quickly grab it and start filming me. "Jimin! Give it back come on i'm not in the mood to be chasing you around" I said alittle annoyed but soon I start to chase them around the set and I actually began to laugh. I was finally able to tag Jimin and he handed me my camera back while walking back to the set, " you are so annoying" I whinned to him "yea I know but you had fun" he said happily and finally posing with V for me to take the picture. Jimin and Tae really helped distract my mind that even after the shoot they invited me to go play games with them and I accepted. The rest of the day was actaully really fun we played card games and it was fun until Jungkook came into the room, "what are you guys doing?" he asked " we are playing card games duh and so far I am losing" Tae said sarcasticlly. I quickly got myself out of the game and grabbed my stuff and left fast, I can't be near him after what he did and I don't care anymore. As I entered my house I slammed the door and threw my bag on the couch as I fought my feelings for him but trying to stay in control. Jack jumped on the bed and look at me with a sad face, " Don't look at me like that! He... he ugh I don't know, sure he is very handsome and sweet with the most cutest smile.. and he is talented and just sigh.." I fell back on my bed feeling my heart ache as if I lost something all over again and I didn't understand why.
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