After half a decade

chapter-18

" Why am I sad if they are into someone?? " I thought wiping my tear.

I didn't know how I fell asleep, but I slept under the tree. I woke up, as a wave touched my feet. I didn't know, what time it was. I got up and dusted the sand of my body. " Why did I sleep here " I was wondering.

I walked towards the house and remembered why I was sleeping near the beach. " Yeah I fell asleep while crying, after loosing someone. Who I didn't knew I liked " . I don't know if I can say, that I like them. I never felt that, I guess the feelings that I didn't knew I had needs to go away.

I opened the back door and was about head inside. " Morning lise, you woke up early today " I heard sara voice from the kitchen. " Yeah, what time is it? " I asked.

" Its half past 6, did you lost track of time " Sara asked me. I went and sat on the kitchen table. " I just went on a walk to see the sun rise " I lied. Sara gave me a are you sure look??. " I know your not a morning person " She said.

" Okay you got me, not gonna lie to you. I couldn't sleep, so I just sat near the beach. But I fell asleep in the beach " I said. Sara chuckled, I smiled in embarrassment.

" Hon, I know. It's hard to sleep, while you have a hard question running up in your brain " Sara said. " Yeah " I said.

" You know you can always, get that question answered from me, anytime " Sara said passing me my bowl of milk, with cereal.

I wasn't sure to ask Sara that question, I was thinking. " Take your time, I'm all yours " She said. She waiting while I was putting cereals in my milk. " Didn't anyone wake up " I asked. " Nope " She said.

" Okay you win, you could get me to open up very well. You are really good at this, aren't you? " I said. " I know " Sara said sipping her coffee.

" Fine......did you ever feel that, you didn't like that person or having feelings for a person. Until you loose them?? " I asked.

" Yeah........ You know. That's not because you didn't have feelings for them until then. The feelings were very deep inside, building inside you. Which won't know until........ Like loosing them. The feelings like come out, with the sadness of loosing them " Sara said.

Every word literally described my situation right now. " Is it normal, what can we do then?? " I asked.

" Ask them, am I too late?? For some it might be late, but for few it's never too late " Sare said.

I just nodded, didn't know what to answer. " I'm still tired, I'll go get some more sleep " I said. Sara just nodded with a smile.

I went into my room, and just fell on my bed. I decreased the temperature and turned off all the lights. I pulled the sheets on to me.

" I know I'm too late"........................