Unattached (Teacher Attachment)

Preface

     I could say that I had an idea of what I was doing when I started this. Honestly that would be a lie because.. well I didn't. I saw a comment on a TikTok video saying there hasn't been enough written about teacher attachment, that there wasn't enough awareness. And I agree. It's something I've been struggling with since I was in fourth grade, and now I'm an upperclassman in high school. For years I was bullied (and still am) because everyone was convinced I was in love with all the female teachers I had. I wasn't. In fourth grade I was nine years old and I was told by my classmates that a rumor was spread, that I was going to murder my teacher's husband because I was in love with her. I was nine. In fifth grade they all called me the _____ (her first name) lover. In sixth grade they said I was finally over it, that it was old news. In seventh grade half my friends were convinced I was sleeping with my PE coach. I wasn't. In seventh and eighth grade it ruined me. High school and I still think about it every day. 

     This is to show people that it's not what they think. It's not an obsession, or a crush, or anything other than just an attachment. Recently I researched it may have something to do with the Favorite Person and Borderline Personality Disorder. I feel like too many people think that they're alone with this, but you're not. We're all a work in progress.

     I'd also like to make sure that there's no confusion with the TW'S. So far I'd like to mention them for self harm, though nondescript, mentions of a psych ward, trauma, and a suicide attempt. After the beginning two chapters there's not much in the line of heavy topics. However, the first few chapters are about a release from the hospital.

(also yes, every chapter is a song lyric :)

With love, 

The Author