The One Night Stand {An August Alsina Story}

Chapter 36.

~Bethany~

I sit on the bed staring out of the window.

That's all I've done since I came home from the hospital a week ago.

August suggested, no, August told me I was going to stay with him.

I was too lost in my own thoughts to argue.

He'll come in every 10 minutes to check on me then go down the hall into a room.

The baby's room.

Our baby.

The child we created that died.

I understand this baby was conceived out of lust instead of actual love.

But it was going to be born and raised into love.

At least the parents love each other...

The truth is I never stopped loving August

Even after all the bullshit he put me through.

I know he's hurting just as I am.

I mean this would be his first son.

Not only that but his very first child.

I knew it meant a lot to him.

But I killed his dreams

It's all my fault.

If I hadn't have been stressing so much, I would still be having our child.

And we would have been a happy family.

And I could finally tell him...

I shake my head of those thoughts.

He wouldn't understand.

All this thinking is giving me a headache.

Before I can lay down August walks in and smiles sadly and me.

"Hey." He sits beside me on the bed. "How you feelin?"

~August~

"How you feelin?" I ask sitting beside her.

She doesn't turn to look at me.

"Nothing." She mutters so quietly I barely hear her.

"What?" I question confused.

She feels nothing?

"I feel nothing." She says blandly. "I can't feel anything right now. It's like my emotions are numb."

I shake my head from side to side in confusion.

"Bethany, are you okay? You're not making sense." I lay my hand gently on her arm.

She sighs and turns to me with an unreadable expression on her face.

"I just feel so lost. I want to cry but I can't because I'm out of tears since I've cried every single day. I want to yell at myself and tell myself how fucking stupid I was to let myself get stressed to the point I miscarried our child." I open my mouth but she holds up her hand. "No Aug, just let me finish please."I close my mouth and hold her hand.

The only thing I can do is listen.

"The one thing I ask myself everyday is why? Why would God put me through this emotional pain? After all the pain and heartbreak you put me through, I survived. When my father walked out on my family, I survived. But this..." I watch as the tears silently slide down her face. "August, I-I can't...I can't do this." She breaks down and that's when the sobs come.

Hearing her bear her heart to me and seeing her like this must have done somethin to a nigga cause next thing I know, I'm cradling her sobbing body in my arms, crying with her.

"A-august I'm s-so s-orry." She stutters out gripping my shirt. "It's a-ll my f-fa-fault."

"Shh. Baby don't say that. It's not your fault."I rub my hands up and down her back. "It's my fault. I shouldn't have stressed you out so much. Baybeh I'm sorry."

Damn this is killing me to see her like this, knowing it's partially my fault.

I need to stop all this extra shit and focus on my damn family.

I'ma do better.

I look down at Bethany and see she's cried herself to sleep.

I sigh and gently lay her under the covers.

I kiss her forehead and start to walk away when she grabs my hand opening her eyes.

"Can you stay with me?" She begs sniffling. "I don't think I can be alone."

"Of course I'll stay with you." I take off my tear-stained shirt and pants then climb in behind her.

"Thank you." She mumbles and closes her eyes. "I love you, August."

I cuddle into her and wrap an arm around her waist, pulling her tighter into me.

"I love you too, Bethany."

I smile when I hear her light snores.

I lay awake thinking about everything she told me.

Seeing her so vulnerable like that really fucked with my heart.

I hate seeing her so heartbroken.

I'll do anything to see her happy

Even if that means me leaving her...

Sorry for not updating in a while but here you go!

•Poor Bethany.

•What is August talking about?

•What's gonna happen next?

•Will they ever find out she's still pregnant?

Keep reading/voting/commenting!

~•Dana•~