Jensoo - Heart Forecast

Part 7

Jennie's POV

Absentmindedly I just follow her towards the car, how ridiculous things are right now, how I always pray to see Jisoo again, now someone that looks like her come around, feels like this feeling might dance throughout the tune, but the dance is for different audience. This is how ridiculous and weird it is right now. "Miss Jennie, do you want some sandwiches? You haven't have your breakfast, aren't you?" I was awake by her question from my bed of thoughts, I already in the car with the fasten seatbelt on which I just realized by now.

"Jennie.." I said to her. Sooya and the guy I saw that day look back at my seat, as if they heard it wrong. "Pardon?" She asked. "It's Jennie for you, drop the miss." I cross my arm and look at the window, trying to find something that can wander my mind to. "Okay Jennie. Eat your sandwich." She told me. Really? She's not being a bit bossy right now isn't she? I asked her to drop the honorific and she's giving me a straight command now. Despite that, I took the sandwich from her. It's not that I'm following her order, I just need to recharge my energy due to this morning incident.

The journey is silent, the only thing I can hear right now is their banter back to back, they indeed seem close. Then I heard the guy asked her about her red cheek but she just shrugged it off, thinking about it, why did Irene slap her? Looking at her side profile closely like this, she did seems different from Jisoo, her feature is stronger while Jisoo looks innocent but mischievous. She obviously have a fit and lean body, not the beefy type, just the healthy type. Jisoo.. she hates exercise, her dreamy bodyline might just come as a gift to her.

My feeling? I don't know how to describe it right now, she's not Jisoo, I shouldn't be affected by her presence. Maybe I was surprised just now because for a moment, I thought that's really her. For a moment, I felt butterflies, turned out it was a false alarm, a very wrong one, why did I kissed her, I must have been out of my mind, stupid Jennie. Now that I know all that, I should just live my life like I used to.

Will I be okay in the future? She's going to stuck with me almost all the time throughout my schedules. What kind of fate is this? How I wish I can see the future, or at least I can predict it like a weather forecast. I don't wanna walk under the storm with an umbrella in my hand, thinking it's just gonna be a normal rain, the wind gonna sweep me off, the unheard prayers will come as a flood, I'll be drown instead of taken into shelter. This bittersweet feeling, it feels good to see someone looks like Jisoo, missing her might won't be that hard anymore. But the bitter side is worse, consciously I know that she's a complete different person, it's just the face. Or she might looks like her just because I keep thinking of Jisoo? People said the face that we miss will often appear, even it's a different person, just like an illusion.

For now, the only thing I know about her is she's a good driver, despite my crazy thoughts all over my head, I almost dozed off, but their bickering OMG, not that I secretly listening to their conversation, but who's in the right mind fighting over anime characters, picking random cars that passing us by as if they own them, what's foot the passerby on the road will set off first before the light at the crossroad, complimenting unknown strangers that they see wherever. Those little things remind me of Jisoo and Lisa, when they always bickering with each other. I must be crazy right now to compare those things.

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Things are running smoothly at work, I'm not feeling affected or distracted over her presence, that's good isn't it? I sometimes catch myself looking at her from the corner of my eyes, she's talking to the other staffs, I can say people feels comfortable around her, judging from how easy their conversation flows. She sometimes go check on me, just in case if I need anything, like drinks or foods, and she's doing just fine for bringing something that I want.

On my way home, I expect her to make an effort to make a small conversation with me, which didn't happen at all. She's being all chatty chitty back there and won't say a word to me, just asking if I'm okay or if I need anything from her, I hate this silence from her. Don't get me wrong, out of all reasons, why she's not talking to me but talk to anybody else, not that I want her attention.. I hate her..

Now that she's sending me off to my unit, should I invite her over or let us be mute all the way? I'm not a kid, she don't have to send me off until my doorstep right? Before shutting the door off, I look at her and she's looking at me, clearly a question mark inside her head. Looking at her back side as if there's somebody else there behind her before she return her attention to my direction. "Do you need anything else?" There you go, I heard that thousand times today, she have a limited vocabulary with me for real. Without answering her, I just slam the door before her face. Through the door intercom camera, I see her still standing there like a mannequin, what's she doing now? Just go back to the company and have a chit chat with others like you did earlier today, gosh she's annoying.

My phone beep indicating a text is coming, it's her, Sooya.

"I'm going back now. Just text or call me if you need anything. Have your dinner later and have a rest tomorrow, you don't have any schedule for 3 days." That's what she sent to me. Before moving, she look at the camera one last time, as if we're looking at each other eyes right now then she smirk. Did she knows I'm looking at her all this time? I don't even bother to reply to her text. All those stuffs, she can say it to me, right to my face, in the car, on the way to my unit, but she didn't say anything so why do I have to reply her text right?

"Be safe on your way home." I said to myself. I know that she won't hear that but I'm not a brat, let's just say it's a thank you note for the good work you did today. I hope you choke on your sleep tonight.