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Friend Zone

Ohm's POV

In 2 days we are going to write entrance examination for Engineering in  a renowned Institution in Thailand. For the past 6 months me and nanon worked really hard and he totally forgot about Max and was preparing for exam, we are going to Thailand today. We are in Mum's home and Dad like Nanon too and he was happy because I was concentrating in my studies but sad because I chose Thailand over Germany. We had our dinner before going to Airport and Nanon thank my Mum and Dad for supporting him.   We plan to stay in a small penthouse in Bangkok. We're having 2 penthouse in Bkk and one luxury house and 2 farm house in ChaingMai  and Mum is having some small houses for charity purposes for poor single Mother.
I want Nanon to stay with me. But we didn't talk about it so far. Mum arranged scholarship for Nanon's studies from her trust but he has to write a small test to get it, just to give him guilty free mind and for administrative purposes so that no problems come to Nanon regarding this scholarship. We plan to stay there for 5 days. Second day we're going to have Entrance exam and Fourth day Nanon writing exam for scholarship. Mum made it clear that whatever our relationship is she is going to support Nanon's education.  Its a long journey about 16 hrs and we enjoyed it but very tired. Atlast we are in Bangkok's luxury penthouse. We just threw our luggages and slept for 6 hrs continuously.  We went for a walk  and had our dinner there. I am really happy to come back to Bangkok. Nanon is silent as usual. I don't want him to think unnecessary things and don't want to see him sad. I dragged him to pent house and he went to balcony and was standing there. We bought beer and cigarettes in 11X7, I light a cigarette and he took Beer and sat there , he was thinking something, Ohm: beautiful view from here
Nanon: yes  dark night, stars, moon, lights all over the city, friend and beer, cigarette, what a peaceful night
Ohm: Day after Tommorow we have to write test, don't drink too much.
Nanon: Yeah I know, want to sleep, only today, want to forget but cant forget anything. can you make me forget?
Ohm: If its about Max, I can't help you. You have to forget your ex, you have to choose which is good for you. You didn't say what happened? It may help you to move on just say what is in your mind, what is bothering you, we will find a solution
Nanon: At first I don't find any changes in Max, but after I go for a walk in the park, he started getting angry, sometimes I felt he is following me, I was scared, but he didn't ask me anything, not even talk about it, had a steamy rough night, hope you understand what I am saying, I divert myself by learning, I didn't inform him that I am preparing entrance exam with you, I was afraid he may mistake that I want to go  or maybe I felt insecure, whatever maybe the reason, I didn't say that I am preparing for exam. He was leaving me a step behind. I guessed already he is going to leave me, one fine day when I came back, he was kissing his friend in bedroom and they're in lovers position, I ran back to park and saw you there. rest you know. I don't want to think about it. I was in a position, noone is there for me except you.  Think if you're not there what will be my position, I can't come back here and can't stay there too. I am grateful for you and your mum. I am not thinking about Max, I am thinking about how dependent I was, how pathetic I was, how useless I was, Still I am dependent, pathetic and useless
Ohm: no Nanon don't say that. You're a good soul, Mum support you because she says eventhough you're broken angel never did bad deeds to others, never talk bad, you're a good soul. When I am small kid we lost our father and we literally live in streets, she worked in a bar and my stepfather took us to Germany, we are lucky, he is really a good soul, he see me as his son, he won't appreciate me but help me to be strong and make me to decide what I want,  Every single thing happens with a reason. so don't think about past, think about future. What we are going to do?. okay. enjoy your life. Mum is going to support your education, write the test for scholarship and score more marks, eventhough we are the trustee, you have to get good marks, Think about your future, don't dwell on the past, Move on from Max
Nanon: Thanks ohm, being with me and supporting me. No one helps like you and your mum. I owe you  and your mum my life. leave my story what about you? Have you met your better half? you're also gay right? what?        yeah  I know we first met in gay club right? you are literally flirting with me until you know about Max,  but after knowing that I had a bf you behave, what a good boy you are ha ha ha
Ohm: yeah, do you know how heartbroken I was then.                  just joking. I love someone and I am not brave to show my love to him
Nanon: is he German?
Ohm: No He is Thai but I decided to propose to him after finishing my degree and after getting a job
Nanon: why, don't you want to be with your bf always
Ohm: No If I had my bf now I can't have friends, so I enjoy my life with friends first and once I settled I give my full time to  my bf alone
Nanon: wow I never expect this, I don't find any photos in your room, never talk about anyone so thought you're available
Ohm: If I am available, will you love me?
Nanon: what? Are you crazy? I am your friend
Ohm: Hmmm. so am I not that lucky person nan?
Nanon: stop. don't flirt with me ohm

he try to stand up, I caught his right wrist and make him to sit. I hold his shoulders so that he can't run.
Ohm: just kidding, don't go, relax. sit for a while

we sat silent and after a long time, he place his head in my neck, he was sleeping soundly....

You're my love Nan. You think me as friend, so you're my friend till our graduation after that you're going to be my lover, if I am lucky. I am selfish person Nanon, I will name a prize after you settle,  you have to pay me till death us apart. My mum is the pure soul nanon she loves you like her son because she thinks  you're like her. She was adult when  she had a problem but you're still in teen and noone to support you. I don't know why I love you. I only know that I love you forever. If you love me, I am going to be the happiest person in this whole world. will you make me happy my love?

I carry him to bed and kissed him went to sleep, hugging him.