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Nanon's Secret

Nanon's POV

I opened my eyes and saw a pair beautiful eyes closed, ohm is sleeping hugging my hips and most of the days I wake up with ohm hugging me tightly, I found comfort like healing when broke up with Max , but after taking medication my nerves are calm, I don't need a hug. I can't say openly to ohm as he is a good friend and he was with me at my bad times and Most of the days back then I broke often crying and he console me, I slept in his hug, he used to hold my Tshirt tightly, when I woke up, he woke up with me and will ask me go to sleep, ohm won't allow me to go to bathroom too, maybe he thinks I am suicidal. But I felt secure in his arms, sometimes he kissed me in my lips, I saw him he kissed his friends in lips in bar and maybe its normal for him to kiss his friends in lips . But I feel butterfly flutters in my stomach, my heart race like a racing horse, it is really difficult not show any reaction to his kiss, I felt shy but I don't want him to feel uncomfortable, so I act his kiss or touch meant nothing to me. Nowadays my body reacts to ohm's innocent touch too. I can't control myself. Every day I woke up with ohm hugging me and I am hard down there. I know its bad to think about a friend like this, but my lusty body reacts to his innocent touch like this. He watch my every reactions like a hawk, he show his concern in his fierce eyes. He is not my type, I like kind soft, gentle person but he is just opposite to what I like. he is fierce eyed hard working bad boy but his heart is pure gold. He show his care and love in actions not in words. I owe him and his mother my life. I can't do this to him. He is my only friend and recently he flirts with me, which makes me delu to unwanted thought in my brain. I can't survive with him near me, I don't want to hurt ohm and his mother. I had some money, we bought clothes for me, he didn't bother to pay, he treats me equal and I bought him 2 T-shirts and he accepts it happily, he wore immediately and I was really happy to see he like those t-shirts.We never thought about sleeping arrangements and other things, but I cooked him meals every alternate days, we are like a room mates. I don't want us to feel awkward because of our friendship. After getting a place in university, I need a small room with cheap rent and part time job for my other expenses. I wrote exam well, so I will get a scholarship for education expenses but I owe ohm's mother a lot. Before coming to Bangkok, I thank her and talk about my future,

Mom: remember Nanon, life is short do whatever you like and that must make you happy. Live your life to fullest.

Nanon: Yes mom thank you for supporting me when I am so low in my life. I maynot survive with my heart broken, youre the inspiration that helps me to live mum, I am grateful to you and ohm, I owe you both.

Mom: never mind. you're a good boy Nanon, we're really happy to help you,I want you to be success in life inspite of your shortcomings, is that clear Nanon

Nanon: sure mom
Mum:what is your plan for staying ohm said you're going to stay in his penthouse

Nanon: No mum. Please
dont talk about this to ohm, I will inform him later, I want to rent a small room mum

Mum: I am having lot of small houses, you can take it Nanon, some houses are vacant through out the year, no need to pay rent. its free and
it will be helpful, you can look after your food expenses only, no need to think about rent expenses what do you think

Nanon: thanks mum but I don't need a house I need a small room, that's more than enough for me

Mum: if its case why don't you choose dorms that is cheap and less space. apt for students

Nanon: I know its wise to choose house but I don't want to depend on you fully mum, you understand right.
I don't need a house, small little room is enough for me.I will search a part time job for my expense

Mum: okay Nanon I will arrange for allowances as you're not using the house that I recommend for you, it may be difficult for you to pay rent and food expenses.

Nanon: thanks mum but no I will hunt for a part time job there and I think I can manage mum

Mum: you're a stubborn boy Nanon okay atleast let me recommend to some part time jobs.

Nanon: Thanks mum for everything, mum please don't talk about this with Ohm, I will inform him later

Mum: just informed him Nanon nothing going to happen, he will respect your decision
Nanon: mum its difficult for me to talk to him but certain things are good in this way. I am going to miss you and him mom. I was really happy living with you and him. I owe you both
Mum: I am going to miss you Nanon, but whatever happens you're born to be success remember that. Make friends, do hobby like music, sports just for half an hour, create a new world around you that is fun filled and that makes you happy. Talk to someone or friends and you must talk to me when you're feeling low, okay don't forget your mum is here. be careful world is cruel, take your steps with care. Ohm will be with you. Don't hesitate to ask help to ohm or to me. we're waiting to help you.

Nanon: yes mum. I know. If I am feeling low or disappointed, I will talk to you or to ohm, you're the only 2 people I have as a family in this whole lonely world, Good bye mum Take care and look after yourself.

Mum: Good bye Nanon May God bless you and may God guide you in difficult situations in your life. Bye. Take care. Call me. No. I will call you, youre going to be a busy boy soon. I call every alternate days, is that okay for you. You must carry this phone wherever you go, you usually forgot the phone here and never see at all. Take it with you wherever you go

Nanon: yes mum sure. bye mum .

I don't want to go. I teared up. I am going to miss mum. She is an angel. I am really happy to get ohm as my friend, I will never forget him, he is not like some spoiled rich brat, he is humble down to earth, kind hearted shy, hardworking boy. I don't want to see anger in those fierce beautiful eyes. I melt whenever he looks into my eyes and come near me with concern. His eyes speaks volumes than his lips. He shows only love and kindness to me. I don't want to see hatred and anger in those eyes. But I am going to miss Ohm and his hugs. I warned my heart every single day, every single time when it skips beating or racing when ohm does something lovingly or silly or with care,"Ohm is my friend and you should not think more than that. You're a pathetic orphan who brings bad luck to everyone, he is like a prince charming with wonderful heart you don't deserve him in this life, so control your feelings and don't fall for him". But my Pathetic heart not listening to my brains advice. It beats faster when he hugs from back and put his face in my shoulders and talking to me or feed me food randomly or sit near me and hug my shoulders or watching tv sleeping in my shoulders or sleeping peacefully in my laps or hugging me tightly or kissing in my lips or flirts with me.
I want to move out of ohm's life since he is not having gf or bf right now. I think because of me and my friendship he is not dating others that may remind max and he doesn't want me to be sad. Eventhough we are planning to go to same Institution, He wants to study Electrical and Automobile Engineering and I want to study Architecture. We are not going to meet everyday since we're having different subjects may be one or two combine classes or some seminars together. Maybe it's time for him to lead his life peacefully.