Finding Neva-Land

Night Crawlers

Zara had trouble sleeping since the beginning of incident when she was 8. She has been subjected to his viciousness since then. Zara always wanted to protect her sisters and her mother. And for the, she kept on silently indulging all the pains that was coming to her.

Today when Zara came back home it was different. After a long time, she felt in content. One incident made her curious of who the boy was and somehow, she had this content smile whenever she thought of the evening incident. Repeating the incident over and over again in her head by pausing, playing and focusing on his eyes in her imagination was what she was doing. She knew this would be the only time she would meet him, and somehow this troubled her heart. She had no idea what was happening to her heart. She was getting restless thinking of all the what ifs. But all her What ifs ended in, she is not worth it, she will be used, she will be taken advantage of, and she is not pretty.

With all this in her mind she fell asleep. She woke awake having the feeling of someone's touch. Immediately she jerked up on her bed. She knew without looking even who was responsible for this. She knew this was another night she had to endure. Her siblings were sleeping beside her and she knew she cannot make any noise.

Zara started shaking. But her father had a sinister smile on his face. The devil must have bestowed on him. How could he not see Zara is his own blood and he is making her life insufferable to live. She started pulling her knees to her chest. And shook her head, pleading from her eyes, please let me go. Tears were flowing down her eyes non stop and here he was still not giving up. She brought her hand together and pleaded silently while tears were non stop flowing. At that moment he pulled her towards her and immediately started touching her.

He pulled her shirt up and started caressing her breasts. She just became a teenager and her body parts were just developing to make her a woman. But this torture brings her more pain than anything as her breasts pains too. She tried to hit him from her leg, but he held her legs together and looked at her angrily. He looked at her siblings and the look itself made the struggle stop. Zara brought her mind to a state where she did not want to think about what was happening to her. She has suffered this torture enough that her mind started shutting off. One thing she was thankful was her father never tried to have intercourse with her. And Zara knew this was because he did not have that sort of time or appropriate environment to reach out to her. But what he was doing was painful enough. Tonight, his focus was her breasts and while he was molding her breasts, he was pleasuring himself and jerking off. Once he was done, he left.

Zara cornered herself to the bed and kept on weeping. No one was there to sooth her pain. She immediately rushed to toilet and started the shower without caring she was still in her clothes. She kept on rubbing herself as if to remove all the dirt that was on her.

Her mind went to all events that happened Since she was 08 and how much she wanted it to stop. She tried to kill herself with medicines, however she vomited and got out from any risk before someone else would notice. And the doctor who looked checked her considered she was a teenager acting up for attention and did not do any checkups or any questions. According to doctor this is simple stomach flu which the child is overdramatizing with pain in chest and stomach. So well, he didn't do any blood tests to know Zara took medicines, nor she had a body check. This was normal for small town doctors, to be careless. And my mother decided to just help the general stomach flu with some home remedies.

Zara used to hide herself. She would play with her siblings and let them be as late as possible. She would ask her brother to sleep with them saying she is scared of a spider or a cockroach that was around. She sometimes visited her grandparents and had sleep overs, or bring her cousins for sleep overs. She would hide in cupboard when she was small and always avoided any encounter, she might have with her had

That night, Zara fell asleep after coming from toilet and while weeping. She woke up the next day to find out her father will be gone for a period of 3 months. This was the best news she had ever heard.