Finding Neva-Land

Anxiety, Results, Him and Butterflies

It is a week after her father left. Zara feels more contempt and freer. She is coming out from her room and spending more time with the family. She missed these times with her family as she avoids being at home. Today was special in another way too. Today considers whether she did well in her exam to be able to enter the town high school.

Since the town is small and there are a lot of children, town holds an exam when they reach 7th grade. This exam basically holds the power for your high school experience. Today she dressed up.

She knew it was special and she wanted to wear something special. She wore the same dress she wore when she received the award in singing competition. It was an ocean blue dress with lace sleeves which were short. The dress came just above her knees. She put the dress on and went towards the mirror. At once the anxiety creeped in. Zara felt it was inappropriate to wear something this short to the school. So she wore the dress with a simple black leggings and a small pump. She was not a girl who wears make up. So, a simple face powder was enough for her. And since her curls were well maintaining themselves, she used a bit of wet cream and bounced the curls with the cream. This was her usual technique.

Zara did not like palming her hair, even though she had been victim of bullying several times in preschool because of her hair. Her hair was different and she knew it from the very first time she stepped into school. There were not many people in that town with a hair like her, thus, Zara always received unwanted attention. This did not set well with other girls in primary school and thus, ended her being bullied. She was named as the nest girl.

She looked at herself once more in the mirror and felt contempt of how she looked. When she came out from getting ready her mother was smiling at her. She came near Zara and assured her, "everything will be fine". She knew, Zara had the tendency to overthink in matters and make the situation worse.

With the little motivation given by her mother she found her elder sister. And with that moved towards the town high school. We were walking and it would take about 10 minutes to reach. During the walk, Zara was talking to her sister about how nervous she is. Zara did not want to fail and reenter primary school. Her sister looked at her in a way that indicated, "Zara you are over thinking".

Zara and her sister reached high school and there were many students from different primary schools getting their results. The neighbor of her whom she saw with the mysterious boy came towards Zara. Adam and Zara have known each other since they were very young. Adam was very protective of Zara when it came to protecting her at school. They sometimes walk to school. Adam was telling something when Zara felt someone looking at her. She turned around and immediately heard a loud noise from inside. Someone fell down. Zara was oblivious to this and was looking at the mysterious boy from before. Adam noticed Zara looking at someone and saw his cousin. Immediately he said, "Zara, have you met Dan, before?".

Dan. This is the first time he heard his name. Zara shrugged indicating she did not know him. They were about to enter, when someone called her name. Before she could respond someone said "I will see you in two weeks" and left. It was Dan.

What did he mean by he will see me in two weeks? What is happening in two weeks? And what is it, every time I meet with this person someone gets injured. With all these questions she was walking towards the results table.

When Zara went and gave her id, she was given an envelope, it consisted of a form and a congratulatory card with her results. She passed and she was through. She thanked the person handing her results and immediately rushed to her sister and hugged her. She showed her results and just then she was called back. They informed her she needs to fill the form as soon as possible and said "we will see you in two weeks".

Wait, that sounded familiar. Immediately her thoughts went to Dan. He said the same. Is he someone studying in this high school? For some reason Zara's eyes started searching for Dan. But he was no where to be seen. When Zara, went out, she saw Dan with Adam, getting on their bike, but was waiting for someone. As soon as he saw her, he gestured from his hands. Thumbs up or down. Zara gave a bright smile to him and showed her thumbs up. This was how Zara went home. Smiling brightly. And thinking of Dan. When she saw Dan today even her heart skipped a beat, as if she did not know how to breath. The butterflies in her stomach did not stop fluttering. There was some connection with this boy and Zara did not know what to think of it. She is not ready for any boyfriend, and she wants to focus on her studies to become someone and get away from this town.