Finding Our Way (Stefonnie)

Chapter 4

Bonnie laid curled up on her bed with the occasional tear falling from her eye having Stefan's words ring over and over again in her head. It's been two days since everything happened and the voice is still loud and clear in her head like she was still sitting beside him in the car.

She didn't go see him that night figuring it was best if they both have some space to cool off. She should've known that things wouldn't have been that easy, but she still hoped that it would.

She admits that she made a horrible mistake and now she's finally paying for it. The thought of her being so close in seeing her daughter again for the first time in years then to have that taken away was what hurt the most.

A knock was at her door and she was glad because she was starving and opened the door with a smile thanking the man for her food before closing the door. She felt a little bad that she didn't tip, but she didn't have a lot of cash on her and she wanted to save what she did have for an emergency.

"Damnit. He forgot my fries."

As soon as she said that, a knock was heard again and she quickly went to answer the door but instead of seeing the server with her fries, she saw her husband.

"How did you know where I was?" It probably wasn't the best opener but she spoke the first thing on her mind.

"I remember you getting out of this hotel a few days ago and I know the guy at the front desk so he told me what room you're staying in."

"Oh. Uh, come in."

She turned walking more into the room frowning some since she was starving and Stefan picked the worst time to come and see her. She notices his eyes look at the cart that held the food and hoped that he would allow her to eat and she practically jumped for joy when he gave her permission.

"I came over because we need to talk." Stefan started after she'd eaten almost half of her burger. "I called out of work today and asked Liz to babysit so we can take our time."

Bonnie nodded then swallowed the food in her mouth. "I guess I should start? Well... I want you to know Stefan that if it was up to me, I would've been home last year. I started having these dreams and visions about you and Aussie and it hurt so much, I felt so much pain and regret that I wanted to leave. I told the drummer that we had at the time that I was leaving, we were pretty close and I guess I thought that he would understand and support my decision, but then he gave me these pills and told me that if I take them that all my pain and regret would go away. He said that I'm living out my dream and I shouldn't let anything stop me from doing so, but now that I think about it, I realize that he was talking about himself. He was living out his dream and he wasn't going to let me stop it.

"I don't know why I took the pills, but when I did, what he said was true, my pain and hurt had faded mainly because I barely could think about anything. When I found out that I was taking drugs, I got so angry at him and I stopped but the withdrawal phase was too much, I couldn't handle it so I started using again and found myself addicted to cocaine."

"Oh Bonnie,"

"My life was one big high of a mess until my manager caught me snorting and put me in rehab. He told me that he had a wife and kids back home and he didn't want to see me ruin what I had back home but little did he know... I already had."