From The Streets 2 : Hall of Fame

Chapter 34

Mya POV
A few weeks later....

Brie was crying as loud as she could. I had fed her, I belched her, I changed her diaper and I just didn't what to do next.

I was overwhelmed. As I held her she kept crying. I tried rocking her but she would quiet down just before starting to cry again.

I felt hopeless. Nothing was working. As I watched her cry, August ran through the door to see what was happening.
I looked at him pleadingly "she won't stop crying" I said
He came over "here let me take her"
Once he held her and started rocking her, she quieted down and was watching him full in his face.
I sighed and I felt the need to cry. "I'll be back"
"Mya" he called out to me like he knew I was disappointed.
He followed me out to the hall. "Mya, it's okay to not have it all together by now. This is new for us, it's a learning process. Don't be too hard on yourself ma"

"I just feel like I'm not doing this right" I said as I started tearing up. "I can't do this"

"Mama, get out yo head for a second"

"I want you to understand two things, you are enough and you are strong. Sure you might not get it now but you will eventually ma. Breathe." He said trying to calm me down.

All of a sudden I started having difficulty breathing "baby" August said worried. "You okay?" I started bending over struggling to catch my breath.

"I can't breathe" I tried to say. He disappeared around the corner and came back in a flash.
Things were beginning to look blurry for me so I shut my eyes immediately.

"Okay baby you got stand up straight so the air can have proper flow" August said grabbing hold of my hands. He led me to the coach nearby and had me sit up straight.
He began massaging my hands and letting me know that he was there for me.
"Try to quiet your mind and focus on my voice" he said in a calm tone.
"I'm right here ma, you not alone in this"
"I'm not gonna move from here until you feel better" he said reassuring me.
After taking deep breaths I was finally able to regain control of my breathing.

My eyes were still closed once I opened them he was staring at me deep in my eyes with a smile.
"There you go, I'm proud of you" he leaned forward and kissed my forehead. He then rested his forehead against mines. With both our eyes closed he said. "You're not alone in this. I'm here. Anything you need baby I'm here. If you need to cry I'm here, you wanna vent I'm here. If you need five minutes away from princess I'm here." He said

He pulled away and continued holding my hands "I would really consider going to see a therapist. This was a big blow for us and we need someone to guide us through this phase of our lives. I'm ready when you ready. Brie can't grow without her mother and her father"
I nodded in agreement. It was about that time. I didn't want to continue struggling with the death of my son and my marriage feeling like it's in shambles. We needed help.

"Okay let's do the therapy" I say and I see him begin to nod. He raised my hands together to kiss them. "We going to come out on top of this. I promise." He said before standing up and pulling me up for a hug.

I rested my head on his chest and we stood there like old times. He kept kissing my forehead every now and then and caressing my face. Just like old times and I just missed these moments with him. This is all I wanted from him before he started wilding out.

Time.

Brie started crying and we broke apart to go tend to her.