the way i love you ➵ beomkai

Chapter Five

"Oh my God," Beomgyu almost tears up as the intro to Boys Over Flowers begins to play. They just finished watching Shrek and even though Shrek is a work of art, it's nothing compared to this masterpiece of a show. He starts to hum along as Yeonjun sits up on his knees to face Soobin more clearly, trying and failing to serenade him; maybe it's a mixture between him being off-key or the fact that this is Soobin he's trying to serenade here, but Soobin turns the other way pointedly and looks over at them.

"How many episodes are there again?" Soobin asks and the question causes Yeonjun to sulk back into his seat, but not before dramatically running his hand down Soobin's cheek as he does so. Yeonjun cackles at the look of disgust on Soobin's face while Taehyun watches them in mild amusement.

"You should know the answer to that," Beomgyu mumbles, gently twirling a piece of Kai's hair between his fingers.

"Too many is how many," Taehyun answers, instantly earning two protests from both him and Yeonjun. Soobin hums.

"That's what I thought."

Yeonjun gives Soobin a nasty glare while Beomgyu mocks him underneath his breath, grinning slightly when the pillow Soobin throws at him misses the bed by a couple of feet. He then glances down at Kai, glad that he's still sleeping and hasn't stirred at all. He feels his mouth twitch upwards slightly as he studies Kai's face.

Beomgyu isn't that ashamed to admit that he stares at Kai more than he should, and without sounding like a total creep, Kai's a little more beautiful to him when he's sleeping. He's beautiful regardless, but maybe this is a different type of beautiful. Maybe it's because he looks more at peace this way, almost delicate and like he has nothing weighing him down; a complete contrast to how he's been, especially as of late.

Beomgyu feels a poke in his leg and he's startled out of his trance as he's met with a smirking Taehyun. "Stare hard enough and his face will disappear," he says quietly. Beomgyu rolls his eyes at this, feigning nonchalance at the knowing look on the blonde's face.

"That doesn't even make sense."

Taehyun just waves him off and turns back to the screen, where Soobin and Yeonjun are entranced and Beomgyu feels a mixture of comfort and fear settle in his stomach.

Taehyun might know about his feelings towards Kai, and how he even managed to figure it out is a mystery to him, and that part alone is enough to terrify him. He likes to believe he's not as obvious as he feels like he is, but with Taehyun it's like nothing can sneak by him. Sometimes it's like Taehyun knows him better than he knows himself.

His throat suddenly feels drier than before and he completely forgets about the shots from earlier when he stands up, staggering a bit as he makes sure to not wake Kai up. His head spins slightly and he clears his throat. "I'm gonna get a drink. Any requests?" He gets two head shakes and a hand raise from Soobin.

"I'd like to request a water, please."

Beomgyu can't resist the urge to tousle Soobin's hair roughly as he walks past the couch, earning a protest and laugh from the older as he exits the bedroom with a grin. He walks down the hall and carefully down the stairs, holding on to the railing as he does so. Once he steps off the final step and starts towards the kitchen he can't help but slow his movements when he instinctively looks up at one of the few family photos framed, specifically the one with his older brother.

He looks happy in it, his smile bright and showcasing his perfect teeth; he doesn't know when the last time he'd seen him smile like that. All he knows is that the guilt that's been pricking at him has only intensified — he could've done more; he should've done more, but life's supposed to be unfair in some aspect.