Backseat Serenade (Jalex)

Chapter Five: Find a Place For Me Again

***Warning, smut in this chapter! Don't read if you don't like!!

Alex POV

About a week after my breakdown, the hospital released me. Vic and Kellin had to go back to their respectable buses because they were going on tour with each other. It was awkward on the bus. Everyone else in the band thought it would be better if I slept in the living room with Zack so they could watch me.

I didn't feel like myself after that hospital visit. It was depression. Nothing could cheer me up, but I put on a show so my friends wouldn't know anything was wrong. After a few days, they stopped checking me for cuts. They thought I was fixed. Oh, how wrong they were! One night, while everyone was sleeping, my depression got really bad. I walked to the bathroom and locked the door. I knew I couldn't cut too deep or they'd know. I grabbed a piece of broken glass and pushed my pants down. I knew if I did my wrists, they'd see, but they'd never check my legs.

I slowly took the glass across my skin, biting my lip so I wouldn't make any noise. The cut felt so good. It was a release from the stress. I threw my head back happily. Finally feeling like my old self. Suddenly-knock, knock- there was a knock on the door. My eyes widened.

"Who is it?" I asked, panic in my voice.

"Alex, it's Jack. Let me in. I have to piss." My eyes widened more.

"Just a second!" I quickly bandaged my leg and pulled

up my pants. I unlocked the door. Jack walked right into me, and our lips connected. My eyes widened, but they quickly closed and I wrapped my arms around his neck, deepening the kiss. This is what I missed. This was my Jack. I felt him relax and pull my body towards him. I gasped at the sudden pain and winced, but Jack didn't notice.

"Alex, you taste really good," Jack said after breaking the kiss. Breathless, I

watched as Jack pissed. He was a beautiful man. Watching him use the restroom, I noticed he was only in his boxers. I, on the other hand, was in skinny jeans and a button-up dress shirt. Normally, I'd have my shirt unbuttoned, but lately I didn't have a lot of self-confidence.

Jack turned towards me and pushed me against the wall. He pressed his lips against mine and used his tongue to beg for entrance. I obliged with his request. His tongue explored my mouth. I moaned into the kiss. Jack's hands ran over my stomach. I felt him begin to unbutton my shirt.

I felt my stomach exposed. His hands expertly traced up my stomach and to my nipples. I gasped as he pinched one. It felt good. I moaned as he gently massaged it. He broke the kiss and moved his lips to my nipple. I gasped, threw my head back, and moaned loudly. I could feel my dick getting hard. Suddenly, one of his hands cupped my dick. I moaned loudly and squirmed under him. He applied pressure to my dick.

"J~Jack~!" I moaned out. He removed his pants and painstakingly slowly unbuttoned them. I squirmed and panted under him. He unzipped them at the same speed as when he unbuttoned them. After he finished that, he started to push them down. My eyes widened. "Wait~ Jack~ Stop~" He didn't listen. He pushed them down and revealed my bandage.

"Alex.. What happened?" Jack looked up at me. I began to cry.

"I... I didn't mean to~" Jack squatted down and kissed

the bandage.

"'Lexy, please don't do it again." I promised him I wouldn't do it again. He

pulled down my boxers and kissed the tip of my dick. He backed away from me and quickly took off his pants. He stepped out of his pants and picked me up, pushing my back against the wall again. I wrapped my legs around his waist as Jack proceeded to kiss me passionately. I felt his hands cup my ass. I let out a loud moan. Jack broke the kiss, and I saw him smirk. He proceeded to insert one finger into my ass.