I'll change for you [Bully!America x Bullied!Suicidal!Abuse!Reader] -Revising-

The Sweet Smell of..Death pt.2

You closed your eyes and slowly began to fall back only to have someone grab your hands, keeping you up. "w-what are you doing?" the familiar voice asked you. You opened your eyes to see the one and only Alfred. "Trying to die like you said!" you said, trying to get your hand free. "I-I didn't mean it!" "Let me go!" This is what everyone wants me to do anyways!" You shouted, still trying to get out of his grip. Alfred then pulled you fully on the roof of the building. You still struggled getting your hands free until you finally gave up. You feel to your knees and began to cry. Alfred suddenly released your hands and pulled you into a tight embrace, rubbing your back in effort to calm you down. "Shh..it's alright, your safe now" he whispered softly in your ear but he didn't help any. Your sobs got louder and louder, "it hurts! W-Why can't you let me die?!" "because..i care about you [name]! I won't hurt you ever again!" he said, kissing your head softly. He picked you up bridal-style and began to walk away from the building. You quickly calmed down when you noticed the change in atmosphere. "W-Where are you taking me?" you asked, looking up at Alfred who was smiling down at you. "we're going to my house but don't worry the only other person who lives there is my brother Matthew so you'll be safe." he said reassuring your safety. With hearing the word 'safe' you fell asleep in his arms without knowing. "You won't have to worry about being hurt ever again [name]" he said softly while walking. When you finally reached his house, he laid you on the couch softly in attempt not to wake you then he left the house softly.  After an hour, Alfred came back and you woke up soon afterwards. "Your awake!" he shouted from the kitchen. Matthew, who walked downstairs, greeted you with a kind smile. You turned your head to kitchen where Alfred stood and instantly realized what happened. You began to move backwards which didn't get you far since you were still on the couch. Alfred walked closer to you and gave a soft smile. "i won't hurt you!" he whined like a little child. You giggled at his childish ways. He walked up to you and handed you flowers. "Here..i um..got you these" "Thanks" you said softly and looked down at the floors. You sighed, got up, and began to walk to the door. Alfred stood there dumbfounded for a second before running up to you and grabbing you wrist. "Hey! Where are you going?" "none of your business" you said coldly, your bangs covering your eyes. He slowly let go of your wrist, seeing how you wanted to be alone. You quickly left the house still holding the flowers but Alfred was still worried since you tried suicide so he decided to follow you at a distance. He was surprised seeing you walk into a cemetery and walking to a grave. You fell to your knees and put the flowers on it. "I miss you! i hope your watching over me. I want to be with you" You said softly. You began you to cry and hug the tombstone. "I love you mom!" you said in between sobs. "I-I didn't know" "huh?" you said,quickly turning around to see Alfred, hovering over you. He knelt down beside you. "I'm sorry for your lose" "I-It's no big deal" "Yes it is! I want to make sure your happy from now on and your mom will see that!" he said determined. "[Name], say you'll be mine and I'll keep you happy and safe from harm! I'll make up all those bad things that I've done to you! Just you wait!" he said looking in you eyes. You thought about his words and finally you nodded. "O-Okay" You said kinda shaky. "I love you [Name]" Alfred said and kissed you softly. You being surprised by the kiss, stiffened up but soon relaxed and melted into the loving kiss. 

 ———-two months————

It had been two months since you and Alfred started dating. Each day kept getting better and better for you; everyone stopped bullying you, he hid your razor blade so you couldn't cut anymore and yet you still didn't eat anything making you skinner quicker, but Wang stayed your best friend which made you happy. It was Friday and the last day of school. You walked into the school building only to see your father. "There you are bitch! Your coming with me!" Your father yelled and grabbed your arm. You started to shake as all the memories of the brutal beating flooded back to you. You slowly became limp in your fathers hand since you pasted out, not being able to handle your horrible memories. Hours and hours pasted by before you finally regained your composer. "What happened? Where am I?" You asked, sitting up and looking around. "At a hospital and don't worry about your father, he's where he belongs" a familiar voice said to you. You looked beside you to your boyfriend, Alfred, and your best friend, Wang. "Why am I here?" "You don't remember, aru?" Wang asked while you just shook you head 'no.' "well" Alfred began "as you walked into school, your father came in, took you away and was practically beating you. then-" "when I saw you not moving, I decided to call Alfred who held your dad down while I called the police, aru" Wang interrupted Alfred's explanation by explaining it the right way. "O-Oh.." you said softly. "Yeah  but you'll be fine" Alfred exlaimed. The doctor walked into the room and looked at you with wide eyes. "It seems that [name] has anorexia, internal bleeding, and a broken leg so she'll need a cast for that. Now about the anorexia, when was the last time you ate something dear?" the doctor asked you, looking at your seemingly weak form. You shrugged "maybe about..four months" you said, thinking back to when you had no lunch money. "tch" the doctor did, looking down at your charts and walking back out the room. "What?! Anorexia?! Broken leg?! Internal bleeding?! This is a joke right?!" Alfred asked in a yell like manor. "W-Why didn't you tell me, aru?" Wang asked concerned more about the fact that you, his best friend, had anorexia. "Why haven't you eaten in FOUR MONTHS WHEN I OFFERED YOU FOOD,ARU?!" Wang said, starting to raise his voice and look away from you to hide the tears that began to form in his eyes. "I-I'm sorry..I just..didn't want you to worry about me." "What do you think I'm doing now,aru? I'm worrying now from my best friend having anorexia,aru!" Wang said,tears starting to go down his cheeks. You turned to Alfred. "Alfred..please don't be upset" you said softly, looking at Alfred currently raking his hair with his fingers. "I should've known. I-I-I should've been there for you and yet I didn't do anything. Did I do this to you [name]? Was I the one who made you not eat ever since I started taking you lunch money?" He asked you and a shaky tone. You shook your head "no! Well..i stopped eating since then but that's since I felt you did it for a reason. I put it on myself. I just wanted to feel wanted and pretty" "[Name]! You are wanted and nothing less than beautiful! That's what you've always been." he said softly to you. Alfred walked out the room and slammed the door, making you wince. 'Great, now Alfred's mad at me' you thought and sighed.