So This Is Love ‼️DISCONTINUED‼️

Chapter 12: not at all ok

A/N: WASUP! How is everyone? Hope you're all doin' good because boy this chapter going to be angsty. Very excited to write this one because it develops a lot in characters, feelings get revealed and there are a lot of hints to what's going on with Tommy...
Also! I've decided Elle (yes cafe girl again) isn't going to be with them. The plan is kind of like: Wilbur Tubbo and Ranboo search L'manberg, Elle stays in Snowchester to keep an eye out. And yk, she works there sooo. Didn't really think that one out. Now! Let's being because this is already 100 words long.

(TW: swearing, mention of death, hospitals, nightmares)

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Ranboo POV:

I was sat next to Tubbo on a train to L'manberg. Honestly the past 2 days have been chaos. Tommy went missing, and that's been the only thing we've been able to focus on. I'm honestly worried about where he is. We haven't known eachother for long and aren't the closest of friends but I'm still worried because yes, he's my friend still.

We had been on the train for about 30 minutes now. Time seemed to be dragging on forever and it was horrible. The past half an hour was spent in silence, Tubbo quietly worrying to himself, whilst I just tried to figure out what to do. A moment or 2 later Tubbo spoke to me, "boo?" He asked in a sad tone. "Yes bee? Are you ok?" I replied. I know he's not ok. Nobody can ignore how upset he looks. "Do you think we're actually going to find Tommy?"

The question stung, because all of a sudden it became clear that no matter how hard I tried to push it out of my thoughts, the 2 of us knew that there was barley any chance we would find him. Anything could have happened. For all we know Tommy could be dead. All we can do is hope that he's at least somewhat safe.

It took a minute for me to reply. "I'm honestly not sure."
"Same here." He said back to me. It sounded like he was about to break. I turned around and  engulfed him in a hug. All he could do back was cling onto me and sob. I didn't mind, he needed to get this all out. He's been acting off all morning because of what happened. "It's going to be ok." I whispered into his hair. We where getting a few weird looks but I really didn't care anymore. All I could focus on was the boy crying into my chest.

A few minutes passed and Tubbo let go. "S-sorry." He stuttered falling back into his seat. "Don't be sorry. It's ok to be worried at the minute." I said, grabbing his hand. "You're going to make me cry more boo." He laughed, and I joined in a free a second. "Thank you though," he sighed leaning his head on my shoulder, "for just being there. You've been nothing but nice to me this entire time and I couldn't thank you more."
"What else am I here for?" I said, both of us laughing slightly.

"I love you boo."
"I love you too bee."

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Tubbo POV:

"Hello?" I ask, the words echoing around the empty area. Where is this? All I can see is the blue square tiles on the ground below me, and white walls with doors. Each door had something engraved in it, but it's too dark for me to figure out what it says.

I start walking down the hallway, each step louder than the other. This feels off. Like somethings going to happen. The ground fells like it's going to let go underneath my feet. I continue walking, until I reach a room with a bright yellow light shining from underneath.

This door is different, as I can read what it says. 'Room 2091'. Have I really walked for that long? Then again at the start I couldn't tell what the doors said. I look underneath the room number to see something that makes my heart stop. 'Patient name: To/////s' half of the name is scripted over and crossed out in black marker. I want to cry there and then because I already know who this is. 'DOB: 09/04/2006'
Yep. I'm correct.

I slowly open the door and am immediately engulfed in the beeping of a heart monitor. I look up at the hospital bed infront of me to see a fully blacked out figure of my best friend, on the brink of death, lying on the bed. I know it's tommy, I can recognise his silhouette from anywhere.

I break down crying right there. I can't stand to look at my best friend of 11 years in a state like this. It's horrifying. I almost collapsed on the floor if it wasn't for me grabbing onto the side of the bed. "Please be ok." I says through sobs. Suddenly there's a voice from behind me.

"Hello."

The voice echos despite the room not being very echo-y. (You know what I mean right? -author)

"I've come to visit you."

"Who even are you?" I ask, still not daring to sting my head up from where I was sat.

"I am someone you know, Toby."

This feels weird. Nobody knows my real name let alone calls me by it. The only people who call me by my real name are my mum and sisters.

The voice brings to speak again.

"I'm afraid it may be to late to save me. But I'm not going to sit here and let you have nightmares about me."

No. No no no no no no. This isn't real. It can't be. There's no way-

I look up, and there stands the spitting image of Tommy. The only difference being wings and a halo. No. There's no way We're to late. There's still hope. I cling onto the angel infront of me, crying until I have no tears left to cry. "Please don't be gone. We're so close."

"I can't promise you that I won't be gone by the time I'm found," he starts, running fingers through my hair, "but you have to promise to try your best to continue on without me if the worst comes." I slowly nod my head. This is what Tommy would want right now. For me to try my best. "Thank you Tubbo."

The figure stays, hugging me tightly, covering my ears. Why is he doing this? It's not like there's much to be heard-

Beep.

Beep.

Beep.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

There was a loud ringing sound from the heart monitor. No. No please. Please! I take one look back at the lifeless body on the bed, still slightly crying.

"Until next time, Tubbo."

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I shot up in a cold sweat. Oh. It was just a nightmare..

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A/N: hi again. Told you it was angsty. Also, big congrats to Ranboo for coming out on twitter randomly again! If you don't know, they now use he/they pronouns. Genuinely so proud of him. Hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as you could, I'm going to bed now.
BYEEEEEE

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