Oliver x Reader (2p England - Hetalia)

Chapter 7.5: Confession

Someone's Pov.

When was it?. The first time I saw you....?

I couldn't bring myself to even say 'Hi'.

I always kept my distance from you.

I always looked up from that bright smile of yours....

I love the way how you kindly help others and give everything.

I love the way how you pick up the pace of others.

I love the way how you kept thinking of others first than yourself.

I love the way how you make friends even if they were strangers.

I love the little humming laughs you make. The bright smile of a morning sun you take. The sweet smell of you're fragrant smell. The Eyes of the brightest star of night. But mostly you're tenderly kindness of a beautiful angel.

I love everything about you..... I want to be with you....I want to be close to you.... I want to know you more.... I want to make you happy from those hidden scars of you're heart....

I will always try to let out you're smile, not with those fake and sad ones you do

I want to be the first one and let out the real bright smile of yours

because from the moment we met...

"I love you"

Yet...

"Why?....." I clenched the little photo as I put it on my burdened chest, it was from an album book that I've kept from years. My tear began to drip down from my pale skin.

I felt it once again. The pain that I wished to forget. It stirs me up heavily that I couldn't stop these tears from falling. I ccried and cried and cried. Never wanting to remember, wanting so badly to forget. But it just made it more worse.

"Why is it...."

I knew that someday, I would be the one who'll be there for you. The kind of man, the kind of friend who'll let a hand to that poor heart of yours.

Then .... as time pass by... I felt deeper and deeper in love with you... but I couldn't bring myself to speak it. So I fancied myself to make a huge confidence and tell you my feelings.

As the day of my chance to make it happen, I heard that you had a huge fight with you're family.

I asked and looked everywhere for you. I wanted to be the man who'll be there for you... forever...

Yet....

As I found where you stand seeing the amazing view of blossomed flowers everywhere... you were with another man.

A man who seems to care for you too like I do. You both were starring each other, I was a distance away from the two of you. I thought that he was comforting you as I was gonna do but.... he let out something that I could'nt do...

Yet...

The next day we met as always, we played and had fun as always. But why wasn't it fun for me anymore?

"Why....?"

You told me that you have a boyfriend and were going out of town for now, going to the city where you'll be staying and go to school from now on. ... of course I was shocked.

I smiled. Giving her a great job and patting her as a 'friend' does.... I wanted you to be happy... right?.

That's all there is..... but why is my chest so hard? I felt like I'm carying something so heavy, that I could anytime fall off the ground?.

Why..... does these tears keep on coming out from my eyes?

Why? What was wrong? Why am I so upset about?

Not you from leaving the town and stay in the city forever, nor hearing you already have a boyfriend but it was.....

"..The bright smile of yours. it was also was likely the real smile. ... I wanted it to make it mine only... so badly... I wanted to be the first one who'll let it out......y-yet..."

I could'nt. I was never worth anything of it. It was too impossible for me..... why?

I tried everything, all the best things I could do and yet why?......

I felt my knees gave up from this heavy pain, its too much. I cried, I screamed, I asked.

Why?.... why?....WWHHYYY??!?!??

It hurts so much.... its too late.

I cared you so much ..... its already done.

I loved you so much..... Nothing will ever change.

What did I do wrong?! Where did I made a mistake??!! What was it that I could'nt give it to you?!?!? What was missing?!?!?!

Regret it and be buried by you're own foolishness

The room was filled with sorrowsness, cries of a broken man, and screams of a wanted voice. It's too gloomy. It's too messy. It's full of broken things.

It was too much.

Loud cries, the heavy burden of a broken heart, the unstoppable tears overflowing with emotions of the sadness and sorrow.

Why.....

_____ : "Hey!,------! Thanks so much! Without you, who knows that I'll get in stuck of that again."

Why.....

_____: "Huh?. No, if you ask me, I'll get on ahead of them. But if ever I can't you'll be there for me, kay?"

Why.....

_____: "Hey, ------. You said you wanted to tell me something."

Yes.....

I..... love you...

------ : ".....a-aah..... no....."

I, for the first time, faked my own smile denying my own feelings who wanted to be heard alread.

"It's nothing! Hahaha let's go"