All chapters [DSMP rp au]

Depression

[Foolish, Limbo, feels like year 2]
I'm still here. In this hell hole, and I so badly wanna get rid if it! But i just.. can't.. how much i want it, i just can't manage to find any way out. My brain & body feels numb, just like my whole existence in this Limbo-whatever. I feel numb, sedated from reality. IF there is a reality...

That is the moment i saw it. A figure..?? Was this my fate, finally.?! Did i have any chance of coming back to life..?! Or even just.. dying?! In a rush i ran towards the figure. The woman seemed to have wild long curly hair. Ma.?! Did she die to.?! My heart made a stop but i soon went back to my spark of hope & joy. I rushed to her, jumping in her arms. "Shh.." "It's okay now.. I'm here.." i began to cry out loud, my body was overflowing with thoughts, but I didn't care. Ma was here, that's what i cared about. "Please get me out of here.! I wanna get out..!" It hurt, saying these words. I wanted to get out of here, seriously. "W-why are you here.?!". Ma didn't reply to my questions. "Shh.. heyhey don't cry now.." "it's okay because now I'm here with you..". She was comforting me, and not failing. After this forever emptiness it finally felt.. save..

"You know I'm not real, don't you?"

"W-what.?". Gone. Nothing. Empty. I was hugging the air, but i was so sure i just saw ma here.?! Sobbing, i crashed down to the ground. I just wanna.. feel..