After weeks of stressful and tiring preparation and several days of checkups, I visited Toni in their house. At first I was hesitant. I was not in the mood to visit her, I feel tired and for a lot of reasons, I really don't want to, but then I have to visit her since it was long ago since we’ve seen each other and I also promised her that I’ll see her. I promised myself not to talk anything about what had happened the past few days and weeks, I don’t want her to worry about me. I know that what I’m doing is definitely unfair and it’s not really right and selfish, but I know that she’ll understand me. I don’t want people to brag about my sickness and I don’t want them to treat me so differently. I want to live my life normally.
So, before I enter their house I painted a smile on my face, I don’t even care if it’s true or not. I want Toni to see me happy even though I’m not. I knocked at the door and Toni opened it.
“Hey Loser!” she greeted me
I looked on her face and widen my smile to annoy her.
“What’s with that face?” she asked
“Hm. Nothing. I just missed you.” Then I hurried to reach and hug her
“You look ridiculous. What’s wrong with you?”
“Me? Ha-ha. Nothing, I was just thinking if you want me to stay here in your front door for all of my life or what.” I know that she can still see that stupid smile of mine
“Oh, sorry. Please take a step and get inside. Please be careful, you might stumble and break your leg.”
“Shut up, you look annoying. Come on.”
When I got inside Toni and I talked so much…
“So, what happen to you these past few days?” Toni asked
“Hm. Not that much. I just don’t feel like happy and I always get irritated. I don’t know.”
“Why is that so? Why didn’t you come here?”
“Oh. I don’t want to disturb you, besides. I thought I just needed some time for myself. You know.”
“Hm.”
Since she’s not talking, I took the chance to talk to her about her birthday plans. But I would not definitely tell my plans for her.
“So, your birthday will be 2 days from now. Do you have your plans?”
“I’m still thinking. I don’t even want to celebrate it. It would just be nonsense.”
“Why?”
“Don’t ask as if you don’t know me.”
“Okay I got your point.”
“I’ll celebrate with you then.”
“Huh?”
“I know you will be there on my birthday and if I am to organize a party for my birthday, it would only be just me and my best friend.”
“Hm. Yeah right. You didn’t ask your parents out?”
“I didn't of course. What for? I don’t want to expect anything from them.”
