[UNDER CONSTRUCTION] "Alone To Long" leafy angst story

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 spelling errors will be a thing, leafy's not great at spelling, give her some slack-, air quotes will be used to show what is actually written in the journal, but also when she's quoting her dreams, sorry if that is confusing, this will have leafy's feelings on the past chapters, though the next chapter will have an actual current, but since she's writing these after it happens everything will be in past tense, warnings- anything from the past chapters lol

"February 2nd, 2010."

The paper in the journal is dirty, there's signs of erasing on some pages, though whoever wrote this, wrote very lightly, and leafy couldn't make it out.

"Found May 17th 2016!"

"I decided to Write my experiences in here!

because- well i don't really know, who knows how long I'll be here, in Yoyle land.

I hate it here, and, I don't know whose stuff this is, but I hope you don't mind!"

"May 18th 2016!"

"Dream"

"i was really tired, so of course i slept, but I dreammed i was back at the battling grounds for bfdi!

and i saw pin there!, but- she was telling me i needed to go somewhere?, like a picnic we were almost late for, she grabbed my hand and started leading me, but she was my friend so i just followed her"

"..I miss pin..."

"anyway! i asked her if she knew where she was going, and she asked if i trusted her, and i do!, even though.. she chased me out with the others.. I forgive her though! because I'm such a nice person-!"

"But after a while, I wondered why it looked like No Progress was made-, so I asked again, but she didn't answer me..

i thought she didn't hear me so i asked again,

but then she told me to shut up! I was confused, and i didnt know if I heard her right, she was in front of me after all, But I said I was sorry, I realized that's not what she wanted me to do..then she was like "ugh shut up! for god's sake why can't you just follow simple instructions'' and that kinda reminded me of mom, i dont think she likes me much-, but i tried telling pin i was sorry again, but she got mad at me again- and she yanked me, and i fell in front of her, and it felt like, like the ground was knifes!! And she. Asked me why I was so annoying- and said something like.."

""I told you to do one thing and you couldn't even do that, you're so annoying and Selfish" .. and I was just- shocked..? and she said- that she hated me.. and she.. said a lot of other things.. and I didnt think that i would ever hear pin say anything like that to me... i dont know how i was able to hear it, so clearly in her voice- "

"Um she pulled me up and and kicked me down and there was suddenly a rock? That kinda felt like rocky? And she just kept pulling me and kicking me, and all i could do was scream! She had full control of me..., and she finally stopped, but instead she put her foot on me and pushed me down onto the rock, i couldnt move, or fight.."

She paused writing, trying to breathe..

"Then she got off me and i sat up, trying to breath, and i tried my best to ask why she was doing this because it hurt so much.. And she said.. That she hoped i would die from this... and she kicked me, but before i hit the rock again- i woke up!! And.. in alot of pain.."

"Anyway i should probably get walking, its about mid day.. bye bye!!"

"May 19th 2018"

"Better DreAm"

"Ok, uhm i had- a dream about pin again, but this time! She was sooo nice!!! But like the dream started in the same place that that, ... that the other dream left in, i was on the rock i was pushed on, and i got up, it hurt alot, but uh i saw bubble, and flower i think, and i talked to them, and they said that pin just walked by and asked where i was and told them to tell me to go to the picnic..? But i was kinda scared this would be the same as the last dream, the picnic and all..."

"But anyway i walked over to the picnic,but only coiny and firey were there i said hello and stuff... but i dont know why i was so casual with firey? And then after a bit i think. pin walked over worried, she was rambling about someone not showing up... i think that was me? B̶e̶c̶u̶s̶e̶ because she then called my name and ran twords me and hugged me!! But that- rreeally hurt my back- uh"

"She was scared i wasnt coming! But like- that was weird b̶e̶c̶a̶s̶u̶ Because the other dream pin was really.. Mean- anyway! The picnic started and it was really fun!! Like everyone was laughing and joking and then firey- and coiny started fighting but coiny looked at pin weird and pin looked at him weird?? And coiny said that firey and him should leave us alone if they're going to fight, but he said it was weird... anyway.."

"Pin kinda...got nervuos.. Nerv- i dont know how to spell that- anyway!! She got kinda akward- and she- leaned?? Towards me and asked for my attention, then asked if I wanted to have a picnic again! And I was ok with that! I mean picnics are fun! But apparently i miss understood?? And she interrupted me and asked if it could be just us.."

"And my face got all warm??? And i uh-"

She paused, her face was getting warm again just thinking about it...

"And so I asked her again if she wanted it to be just us, just to make sure I was hearing her right.. And I was?? She wanted to just hang out with me, it sounded like a date.. But thats just silly!! I was told girls cant date girls... so maybe it was like a hang out? Anyway she said we only would if I was comfortable, and of course I was!! She is-"

"She was my best friend! And i wanted to say we could, but i was starting to wake up"

"I woke up a bit off of what i wanted around middle of the day but that ment i had light to write more, i diddnt have a dream last night..? Moring? Something along those lines, the sun is starting to set, i wanted to report what happened today! Maybe it could be like im telling someone this... i know my plan i made up was to stay in yoyle city till i died..but i really hope i can find a way back- ... i miss pin."

"there's smudges on the page now, whatever, i found this radio thing- it looked broken, as if it was smashed or like? Stomped on? I kinda p̶o̶c̶k̶e̶d̶ poked at it for a bit, but i didn't want to waste time, so i kept walking- I'm starting to want something else to eat- I hope i dont become allergic to yoyle berries or i might have a problem I wonder what pins doing.. I hope she's doing ok, i miss her, i miss her alot, she was my best friend. She always will be- no matter how much she hates me, I'll l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶h̶e̶r̶ care for her forever.. I miss firey, i was such a jerk, i shoulda just dealt with what he did and maybe tried again later, oh i'm so stupid"

"I miss coiny, i miss bubble, i even miss flower... that sounds really mean, but she's really mean so- yeah thats

That's still not better, she's not that bad she has her good moments"

"Do I miss pencils? Or match, or tb or gb?, sb? td? I'll be honest, a little.. I know that they dont miss me at all. None of them do. Their proebly happy i'm not there, i bet they hope im dead.. I wish i was dead to."

HEY PPL HOW DID U LIKE THISSS chapter, i hate writing journals for myself and even more so on paper, apparently people don't know this so i have alot of little note books im supposed to use bc silly people don't fucking listen to me lols, anyway i decided to make one a physical version of Leafy's journal, but it was a bit annoying writing like this so i might alternate between book pov and what's actually happening,

also sorry its taking me so long to post stuff, i swear to the god i dont believe in i published this already sorry if anything's messed up, my brains not wanting to work rn