in her shoes

chapter 7

I'm at the dance studio currently on a pole  with my legs with my whole upper body in the air,desparado by rehanna busting through the speakers I'm in my happy place right here.

I just got out of the studio it's late in the afternoon and I will just crash at the apartment tonight. it's been two weeks since the failed mission and my bruises have cleared thanks to Mami's home remedies but I'm still not yet over the disappointment of how I handled that mission and I have asked for a do over from Manuel and he agreed,so I have been on couple of missions with him and some on my own but that disappointment is still feels fresh and I some times ask myself what is the real reason why I'm doing all this and the memories of my childhood tales told my dad that ignited the love for this bring me back to me senses,I don't know how I'm going to deal with this phobia I have of failing but the next failure might be it for me and I can't have that so I'm I doing everything that I know it's challenging for me because I can't afford to have a weakness, so I have been doing a lot of knife throwing because that's the only thing I struggle with a lot in the past it's very challenging for me.I have never been good with knifes so that where that come from.

I get to the apartment and I'm beat I need to call my dad and sleep tomorrow I have a long day of pampering because I missed the previous event because I was all bruised and I had to recover first so Rafael is taking me to this masked charity event hosted by some hotshot from the underground world and it very risque the theme is Moulin Rouge so only lingerie is to be warn and I already have this nice peirce I got ready and only grooming it's needed,nails and hair to match, since it's a masked ball I have this black lace mask I got to match. so tomorrow night I'm rubbing shoulders with the who is who of the underground world but not really meeting the people because the whole event it's anonymous hanse the musk,so the whole thing it's happening at a secret location you only get an invite if you are already a member, and you get the location via SMS 30min before the event starts so I can't wait.

so let me tell you about the lingerie  it's a tiny yellow stripless corset peirce pulled up stockings with clips connecting on my thighs  with matching thong, with yellow  stilettos making me look taller that Iam the colour it's very exotic against my dark caramel skin tone.I'm done talking to my dad and it seems everyone is doing well back home so no worries there let me get to bed.

I just left the spa and I feel clean and I also needed my clit jewelry replacement,I'm in love my tattoos and piercings because they remind me of back home and more specifically Aya I miss her so much and she is going to be flying in for my graduation in 6months I can't wait.so back to my day I'm heading to the salon  for my butt length blonde with a touch of black twist and claw shaped nude nails, then off to getting ready Rafael is sending a driver to pick me up around 7 because normally this things start late but I will have my long silk gown on for when go to RAF's house, I will only reveal my look at the venue and I'm really glad Rafael is Manuel's best friend and was also raise by mami in a way so I'm like a sister to all of them.

Now we on our way to the venue with RAF and I'm holding a glass of champagne sipping from it, because RAF is loaded we are in a limo 

RAF:so Chica are you ready?when we get to the venue you are going to sit on my lap like we rehearse because this party it's very elite and it's organised by a ghost only who by his killing style no one has ever seen him so he like a myth until he kills then you know he exist, so very private person.

Me :so mean to tell me non of you know who the guy is? And yes I remember everything we rehearse we don't want people asking who Iam.

RAF:yes and the guy as you say might be a woman so that why we are being very careful we don't want people suspecting you since he has many people out to kill him/her so you don't want people be suspicious of your presences. although I might leave you during the course of the night to mingle with associates of mine but please don't drink anything or smoke from anyone alot of girls go missing at this things and you know where they end up right so are clear.