~Dotty's P.O.V~
I lay there on jakes chest, a soft smile threading its way across my lips as he placed his hand gently on my back. I could feel it in the way he touched me, in the way he looked at me....the way he kissed me, that jake loved me as much as I loved him.
"So much for there no touching rule~" he cooed with a soft chuckle that reminded me of velvet, I smiled wider and turned my head toward his to look at him...but when I did my lips were met eagerly with his. I squeaked in surprised but instinctively let my eyes slip closed and kiss back, jake ran his cold hands through my hair, tugging it softly and spiking and ever so quiet involuntary moan from the back of my throat. We already messed around with each other nearly thirty minutes ago so I was pretty much a weak limp noodle at this point.
"Dotty, can I tell you something?"
"Yeah of coarse you can" I replied cheerfully
Jake let out a deep sigh and swallowed hard before adjusting himself to sit up slightly, his expression showing flickers if pain like the rapidly passing by headlights of a car. I gently touched his face,
"Jakey...babe what is it?"
"Dotty I...I just thought I should say that...you mean the world to me and thank you for loving me with every psychotic word that has passed through my poisoned lips..."
Jakes expression was that of someone who was giving up on something big and it was leaving a gut wrenching knot in the pit of my stomach...to my ears...this sounded like a warm up to the one word that I feared the most...'goodbye'. My eyebrows pulled together in concern.
"Jake..." I breathed tearfully "what are you trying to tell me..."
He blinked a couple of times before giving up on hiding it, he let the tears begin to flow down his cheeks as soft sobs wracked his body.
"Dotty I...I have cancer..."
I felt my stomach go cold and my eyes start to sting from the threat of oncoming tears.
"But y-you said you have schizophrenia..." I countered
"I do....but the reason I have it is because they found a large tumor in a part if my brain that can't be removed...oh g-god dotty I'm so scared!"
Jake sobbed violently as he buried his face into the crook of my neck and I could feel his warm tears trickling down my collar bone and chest...tears of shock were all I could manage at this point.
He went on like that for a good five minutes until he gasped and I had to get off of him faster than hell before the nurses had the chance to open our door. As soon as I made it to my side of the room about six of them all rushed in to jakes bedside, asking if he's alright, if he's suicidal, or if he feels like hurting himself. He shook his head no to the first one and yes to the other to...he had been lying to them for months. Jake ALWAYS felt like hurting himself and it pissed me off that they were stupid enough to believe him. He was under suicide watch for fucks sake!, I wanted so Badly to yell at them...to tell them what's wrong...but I couldn't, I was forced to keep my mouth shut and my opinions silent.
I felt so exhausted that I began spacing out, it got so bad that one of the nurses has to shake me a little to bring me back to reality, I could feel there firm grip on my boney shoulders and it made me uncomfortable.
"Dotty! Dotty sweetheart are you all right? Come on honey respond to me...that's it...there we go, it's gonna be alright " the nurse cooed once she got my attention.
"Yeah...I'm fine..."
She looked at me with that motherly look that told me how much she knew I was lying, nurse Jackson had always been my favorite hear because she treated me like her own son...I got the love from her that I never got from my real mother.
"Now don't you sit there and lie to me pumpkin, Ive been working hear for to long to fall for that one twice"
I felt like crying, and I wanted nothing more in that moment than to have her hold me and tell me that everything was gonna be alright...I wanted her to adopt me, I wanted her to become my mother by law. But I knew the adoption part would never happen and it broke my heart. I felt nurse Jackson place her soft warm hands over my frail, sickly ones and squeeze them lightly in comfort.
The other nurses had given jake a sedative so he was laying down fighting sleep as they all filed out the door and down the hall.
"Why don't you get some rest pumpkin, and in the morning miss Jackson will slip you something nice for breakfast to ease them tattered nerves of yours"
nurse Jackson said with a grin and a wink, I nodded, giving her a smile in return before she had to give me my nighttime meds...the kind that knock me out. Shortly after I took them I began to feel drowsy so I lay down and cocooned my self in my blankets, curling up into a ball.
"Dotty...I...I love you" jake said sleepily.
"I love you to"
I didn't think anything of it...I was to tired to think much of anything...Im happy I said that I loved him to, because the next morning I woke up to jake no longer alive...the last thing I had said to him was I love you and for some reason it made me very upset to think that I didn't say more. Jake Dawson had beat his head against the wall until he killed himself...and I will NEVER forget how he looked the moment I opened my eyes.
