Forbidden Love [student/teacher]

Drowning...

I'm falling... Falling deep deep down into the depths of the ocean. My vision blurs. Breathing becomes useless.

Somebody save me

I woke up with a jolt. I was panting, my heart was pounding, and I felt a thin layer of sweat on my skin.

What is happening to me?

I couldn't go back to sleep. It's only day 2 of school and I'm already gonna be falling asleep in class.

I've honestly never felt this way before, not even with my ex boyfriends. It all started when I met Mr. A. Whenever I saw him my face got warm and my heartbeat sped up.

Okay... Let's figure this out. It's impossible for me to have feelings for my teacher but what else could this be? You know what, I'm just going to suppress these feelings until it goes away.

After feeling accomplished, I got out of my bed and turned on some music. 5 More Hours by Deorro & Chris Brown came on and I started to sing as loud as I could. "5 MORE HOURS WE JUST GETTING STARTED" I jumped around my room, starting to feel the anxiety washing away.

Pound pound pound

I walked to the door to see Dylan with a tired look on his face "Can you shut up...please" he hissed.

"Hey, I have a lot of stress right now so being loud and annoying you is helping me" I said glaring at him.

He rolled his eyes "Well can you do it quieter please and thank you."

I shut my door in Dylan's face and got ready ignoring his request.

I didn't think twice about Mr. Adams... I couldn't.

I promised my heart I wouldn't hurt it again after what Josh did to me.

**It was my first time in Josh's room. He had posters of his favorite football players hung up on the cream colored wall. I sat down on his bed while he closed the door behind him.

"Are your parents home" I asked.

He eyed me and replied "No"

He walked toward me and pushed me down on the bed and positioned himself in between my legs. He pushed his tongue into my mouth. He's never kissed me like this before and I wasn't so sure I liked it.

He started lifting up my shirt but I was too self conscious, so I stopped him.

Confusion flashed across his face. I said "Look, Josh, I love you but I don't feel comfortable doing th-"

I couldn't even finish my sentence. He reattached his lips to mine with more force than before. I really wasn't comfortable.

He wasn't being caring or loving towards me. Josh's kisses were harsh and forceful unlike his usual soft, sweet kisses that made me feel like I was on cloud 9.

There was no spark when our lips touched, or euphoric sensation each time he touched me.

"Josh... stop... please" I begged in between kisses.

"Trust me babe, you'll like it" Josh declared while taking off his shirt.

"No. I have to leave. I'm sorry Josh" I started walking to his door. Suddenly I felt his hand clench my wrist. I twirled around and locked eyes with him.

His eyes were dark, full of lust. His breathing was heavy and his brown hair was messed up, falling down his forehead.

He pushed me back on his bed. I never asked for this... He pinned my arms down while kissing my tears away.