Forbidden Love [student/teacher]

Confession

It's Monday. I decided last night that I was just gonna keep my head up and show him what he's missing, even though my eyes were still puffy from crying last night.

I curled my hair and put on a dainty white dress with a nice lace trimmed Peter Pan collar. I then sprayed perfume that smelled like strawberries and cream.

I ran down stairs, picked up some breakfast and was out the door.

I arrived at school, and I can tell you straight up that I was 10 times more nervous now then yesterday.

History was my first class of the day. Sighing, I started walking to my locker to drop off some books.

"Are you okay boo boo?" Sierra asked while hugging me from behind.

"I am, honest." I replied.

"Good!" she laughed, and let go of me.

Michael walked up and wrapped his arm around our shoulders.

"Ready to go?" He asked.

We giggled "Yah"

When we walked in the door, I made eye contact with Mr. Adams. He blushed and quickly looked down.

I started to feel lightheaded. We all sat down in our regular seats and Michael looked at me skeptically.

"Are you alright Bails?" He asked.

"Yah, I'm fine" I said smiling at him.

I looked up and saw Mr. A.

Once again, once we made eye contact he looked straight down.

Just ignore him.

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It's been 1 week since the incident with Mr. A. It was still really hard to look at him but my grade was actually going up in the class.

We're working on a group project right now and I picked Sierra and Michael to be in my group. It was a little strange. Whenever I interacted with Michael, Mr. Adams seemed a little upset. I didn't read too much into it though since he already rejected me once.

Ring ring ring

I gathered my things and walked out the door. I was halfway down the hallway when I felt someone grab my shoulder. It was Mr.A. What does he want?

I looked at his eyes and they were red... He grabbed my hand and we started walking towards his door.

"What are you doing? Don't you have a class to teach?"I whimpered.

"I have this period off " he said walking forward without facing me.

We entered his room and he closed the door behind him.

"I need to talk to you"

"Why?" I asked shyly

"Bailey, I...I can't do this."

"Do wha-"

"You!" He cupped my face and all the blood rushed to my cheeks. "Bailey Rose. I can't get you out of my head. It's not right, but I've never felt this way about anyone before."

He took a step away from me and continued. "When I see you, my palms sweat, my mouth gets dry, and my heart beats a little too fast. I even get jealous of you talking to Michael!"

I was at a loss for words... I can't believe that just happened. It was too much to take in.

"But when I confessed to you a week ago why did you run away?" I questioned while sitting on a desk.

"I was scared. I didn't want my feelings to get in the way of my work, but it was just too much to handle."

My eyes were filling up with tears

Oh gosh Bailey, again...really!

"Look...when you walked off last week, I was a wreck. I didn't know what to do, or if I'd get over it." I said while wiping a tear off my face.

"I promised myself I wouldn't hurt anymore, but when I'm with you, I feel completely vulnerable... and that scares me..so much."

He looked as if he had a loss for words. "I would never hurt you Bailey."

"You already did though. Don't you understand! If I was that upset when you rejected me... then how will I survive when something deeper happens?"

"I can't..." I said. Then I walked out of the room while wiping the tears off my face.

I ran to my car and drove home.

When I walked towards the door I heard yelling.

Strange

I opened the door and saw my mom and dad standing in the kitchen.

"Honey, what are you doing home?" my mom questioned.

"I felt nauseous. Do you mind calling the school for me?" I asked.

She smiled. "Fine...just call next time."

I ran to my room and laid on my bed.

I turned on some music, and thought about life.

What now?

There is no doubt that I want to be with him, but I'm falling to fast.

I don't know if he'll break my heart, but I also have this strange sense of security when I'm around him... like he'll never hurt me.

There's also the natural high that I get when I see him... but then again he's the same one to crush me and make me feel weak and helpless.

Suddenly, I heard someone yell "Stop it!" followed by a door slam.

I quickly ran downstairs to see my mother with her head down on the table.

"What happened?" I asked.

She lifted her head up. "Sit down Bailey."

I obeyed her orders.

"Your father got another, better job 2 hours away. We've been arguing how this is going to work."

"Would we have to move?"

"I told him that I'm certainly not leaving my job here, so if he does take it, then we'll live separately. We don't want that for you, hence the reason we're arguing."

"But if you guys love each other, then why doesn't he just keep his job here?"

"Umm... Bailey, there's a lot of things you don't understand... things that you don't know about. We're thinking about taking a pause to get our lives together..."

I couldn't believe this

"What does that even mean, a pause! Are you guys tired of each other? Sierra's parents never got tired of each other, and Michael's parents never got tired of each other!"

"This is for the best"

"For 19 years you've never been 'tired' of each other. You guys are just selfish."

"Bailey! It's not like we're divorcing!"

"It basically is though! I'm I going to see my father around this house anymore. No!"

"Once the time is right, we'll live together again."

"Just shut up."

"Excuse me! Bailey I know this is hard for you, but you don't understand!"

"Your right. I don't understand!" And with that, I ran up to my room.

I swear I've cried 100 times this week.

My whole life is falling apart...