Where I Got It Wrong

The Famous Kids And Friend Circle, Was I Left Behind With One Year

As being the biggest one in the building of small one, for us the world was too small. As new semester started my friends left the school with some reason I never knew as being a kid. The interaction between class members grew form seats to rows in a blink and the era so called friend circle arrived. Me being a lesser being in the huge world didn't take a big part in conversation and being a kid who dissolves in any kind of conversation, was pulled by the small and sweet Breeze of wind which converted into a little storm never bothered me once as I can never deny a friends request myself and she being 'She' I could never ment nor tried to stopped her as it was only place of comfort.

After a week of regular classes and a few weeks before the summer holidays she introduced me to her new friends which consists of kids ace in exams, sports, charm, popularity and ofcourse teacher favourite. To be honest in these fields my existence was as visible as a thirsty fish in water. As they began to talk it all seemed normal talks for kids but as after time goes by I started to feel a wall between everybody form except her which didn't surprise me a bit but I saw a thin translucent layer starting to form which gave me some anxiety which I cleared by drinking full bottle of water alone for first time and asking her to let's go and fill it together which she agreed with a questionable face. As we went out and had a few distance from the class I asked her with a questionable tone and face full of anxiety "w... we ar... Are we friends right!?" Which she replied while giving a smack to kids with social anxiety back "hell yeah! Why not and you see I introduced you to my new friends circle too ain't I too good, and how long are you gonna be quiet in front of them? you should try to make more friends and be more sociable".

Completing her words she suggested a surprise race event back to class and started with a headstart herself as usual with a big smile turning back saying "they are waiting for us, let's go" and turned forward. As I followed the small race track behind her with a smile, as she turned around my reply smile was slowly fading with legs slowing down to the speed of normal walk and looking down as my eyes wanted to follow my nose while observing the floor. I thought as usual she would stop for a call but this time it didn't happen she was disappeared in the crowd in front of eyes for which I didn't think too seriously as my mind was filled with other thoughts which came out so at least my ears could listen it," I also wanted to know that an I different form them right? As today is the day that we have been friends for one year right? I'm not bothering you right?...". With list of many questions like this speaking to myself I reached the class door. As I entered inside seeing her looking back and shouted my name so that I could come and join them for a talk. I followed the pull with my eyes replied coming while bottle on unknown seat and joined the group again.

This scene was watched by the seat owner while he picked my bottle to my seat without talking to himself " how can you still be happy while you've fallen so bad..., just look at the plastic bottle how irregular shaped it had become".