After yesterday, everything seemed to be tense. Clay seemed stressed, and Sapnap seemed to just want this new era of the household out of there. Which I could agree with, but I still couldn't help but hold the whole guilt of the situation if that even makes sense.
I knew it couldn't be my fault, but I still felt that Clay's stressed mindset was well my fault. Maybe it was the way he looked this morning, with the dark eye bags under his green eyes, or maybe it was how Sapnap was comforting him and I wasn't. I should've comforted him I would've, but things were still awkward, as we both blame each other the tiniest bit.
I sat down on my bed after pacing around my lavender-colored bedroom for the last 15 minutes. I knew it was possible Sapnap and Clay could hear me but I didn't seem to care. My thoughts seemed to race. Was it my fault? Was it his? I decided it was neither of ours, we both just made a tiny mistake, leading to a big one.
As said before, it didn't stop me from feeling guilty. I knew he wasn't going to try to start a conversation, so it had to be me. The worst that could happen is that he kicks me out of the house, which wouldn't even be that bad. I need a reason to move out anyway when I graduate, not that I want to move out. So I made a decision and walked across the hall to the room where the dirty-blonde-haired boy was in, and knocked.
"Sap, I don't want to talk right now," The boy from in the room groaned and most likely rolled his eyes.
"That's cool, but that's not my name," I replied opening the door and walking in. I sat on the floor looking at him from where he was on his bed. Clay sat up and stared, and I stared back. "This is way too dramatic," I groaned, Clay laughed and his eyes seemed to brighten up if that was possible.
"I agree," he said, laughing with a loud wheeze. I stared at him funny and he just decided to make an ugly face at me. Making me break into a large smile. Everything seemed to be normal. Like my worries had just seemed too dumb, fake.
"I'm sorry-"
"I'm sorry-"
We both said in sync. We smiled again as if it was a mutual agreement that we had both forgiven each other, even though there was nothing to apologize about. We both made eye contact, I assumed he wanted to speak so I kept quiet.
"Do you want to stream? Introduce you to the fans?" He asked looking nervous as if I'd be the one yelling at him. I smiled and nodded my head. I was ready. Clay's face broke out into a big grin and clapped his hand jumping up, out of his bed.
"YOO YOU GUYS ARE FINE NOW?!" Sapnap had shouted bursting into the room. I turned my head and nodded, a small smile accompanying my face. "Bet, soo stream when?" He asked looking around.
"Now," I answered. Clay, Sapnap, and I all smiled at each other Clay went up to his PC starting to set up the stream
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