☆ s i m p l i c i t y ☆ ~ sturniolo triplets

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i'm walking down the stairs and get down to the last step. without looking back, i turn to walk outside. muscular arms whip around my torso and frighten me. "WHAT THE FUCK?!" i screamed as they start running to the slider door and towards the pool. i still dont know who the hell was carrying me. i hear alahna laughing her ass off and not helping me.

"FUCK" i yelled as we got closer to the pool, "CHRIS" i figured out hearing his goofy laugh.

"MWAHAHAHAHA" chris evil laughs making me laugh harder. i screamed as he jumped in the pool with me still in his arms. he let go in the water and we both swam up.

i sent a big splash at his face when we got above water, then looked at nick matt and alahna bent over laughing at me.

"did you know about this?!" i questioned them laughing. "it was matts idea!" nick managed to say between laughs. i jokingly glared at alahna. "hey i had no part in this!"  she said after she calmed down a little. i swam over closer to the rest of them, and chris followed.

"so you three were plotting this against me the whole time?" i say flatly. "yup" chris said, apparently standing right fucking beside me which scared the shit out of me. "jesus fuck!" i yell, i lunge towards him and he gets scared so he jerks away from me putting his hand up. "i'm plotting your demise tonight." i mumble, giving chris the stink eye.

"yooo"alahna laughed.

we stayed at alahnas house until around 9. i decided to post on insta because people deserve to know about kennedy. it was a picture of me and kennedy when we were in fifth grade, with our arms around each other. the caption said: nothing lasts forever...

matt drove us back to their house and we all took showers. nick and matt went first.

i laid on my back on the couch on my phone, chris is on the other side of the couch.

"are you okay?" he asks me. i tilt my phone down so i can see him. he sees the look on my face and continues, "you look sad" "oh" i say. putting my phone down. i shrugged. he crawled over and laid on top of me with his head on my chest. "talk to me" he said, trying to get me to open up.

i got butterflies. this is not the first time he's done this so i have no fucking clue why this is the first time i get butterflies.

"i just feel like .... i dont know." i say, hiding my thoughts. "yeah you do. talk to me." he said. i could feel his chin pressing into my chest as he spoke. i sighed. "i just feel like maybe i should have been there more. like maybe she lost interest because i wasnt a good enough girlfriend, or-" i say looking up to the celling.

"are you kidding? she chose to hurt you. she fucked up. not you." he cut me off. "so dont even try to talk about yourself that way." he finished. i smiled and looked down at him. i roughed up his hair. i got a text.

"matt's out of the shower" i say looking back at chris, shutting off my phone. "i love you nelly" he says. "i love you too" i say. we stay there for a second, then he crawls off of me so i can shower. "go fast" he says, returning to his phone. "absolutely not" i say, walking up the stairs.

when i get out of the shower i change into fresh clothes that i brought from home. i walk downstairs and over nicks room where all of them were. the door was locked. wtf? "nick?" i ask. "you need a valid fit to enter" he says, muffled from the door in between us. "really nick?" i heard matt say quietly. "uhm.. okay?" i say and run to chris's room.

i grab cargo pants, a yellow hoodie, a green jersey, and a cowboy hat. i go to matts room and look in the drawers. im very confused as to why matt has matching ducky boxers and socks. i put his boxers on over the cargo pants and the long socks go over the pant legs. to top it off, some purple glasses.

stunning.

i went back downstairs to nicks room and knocked. the door cracked and nick looked me up and down and collapsed to the ground. dying laughing. when nick dropped, matt and chris looked over at me. matt cupped his face with his hands laughing when he realized i was wearing his ducky underwear. chris's mouth dropped and started rolling around on nicks bed.

i walk into the room and pose a couple different ways while matt takes pictures and nick and chris are still rolling around. quickly, i turn around and sprint back upstairs to change. i was the only fucking one nick told to dress up, but i wasn't mad. i put everything back and changed back to my old clothes.

i entered nicks room again to see that nick was still laughing on the floor, giggling. chris and matt were on their phones, chis's hair looked flat. "nick linda is back" i say giggling as nick snapped his head around to see chris and he once again lost it. "what the fuck are you talking about?" chris says, fixing his hair.

i sat down on nicks bed and turned on his tv. "nick stooop. its enough!" chris says, getting annoyed at nick still laughing. "yeah its a little overkill" i say, looking down at nick. about two minutes later he calmed down. i put on north woods law and we all just hung out for a while. nick and chris had fallen asleep.

i pulled out my phone and opened instagram. i opened the comments on my post to see what people had to say.

they broke up?? :(   i sighed.

oh thank god

noooo!! they were too cute
^^they really we're

thats so sad they were really cute...

nat is way too good for her

it was probably natalies fault

my mind started only looking for the hate comments 

'who does she think she is?'

'kys'

'nobody cares' 

tears started filled my eyes. i've struggled with self harm before.... 

i dont belong here.
i'm such a horrible person.
who the hell do i think i am?
i dont deserve to live.
my life means nothing.
i want to die.
i want to die.
i want to die.

"i'm going to the bathroom" i say, not showing my teary face to matt. i rush out and lock the bathroom door behind me.