☆ s i m p l i c i t y ☆ ~ sturniolo triplets

"fuck it"

SEXUAL CONTENT - (no actual sex)

"i love you more than anything, you know that?" he says looking directly in my eyes. "i'll die for you, and i'm not leaving you alone." he grabs my wrist referring to what's very visible. "i saw these earlier." he says, "i want you here with me nelly... i cant lose you." that got deep fast.

my face is beet red and hot. i move my hand to his cheek, and run my fingers back through his hair.

do i kiss him?
no obviously i don't, he's just my friend
but i've wanted to for so long
do it
kiss him
DO IT

i lean into him fast, locking our lips.
he reaches over me to grab my waist and pulls me closer to him
i lift my leg and pull myself on his lap, keeping my lips on his
it's hot, my stomach is turning and my heart is racing
his hands rub up and down my thighs.

this is not happening. not with matt. not right now.

"matt" i pull away. out of breath
"i know i'm sorry" he says also out of breath.
i've kissed two people like this in a matter of less than four hours.

who the fuck do i think i am?

"what time is it" i pull out my phone from my pocket. i glance from my phone to matt a couple times.
"fuck it" i lean back into him and resume the kiss.

my fingers run up the back of his neck and through his hair.
he tugs down on my shirt to get my attention
i pull away for a second and give him a look,
"fine" i lean back into him as he lifts my shirt from my torso and takes it off

the kiss lasts longer, i kinda lost track of how long we've been up here. but i'm sitting on him now in only a bra and sweatpants and i'm getting a little tired

the oven timer goes off, i completely forgot about the brownies.

i pull away for the third time, kinda feeling bad.
i roll off of him and lay flat on my back.

Matt's POV:

i actually think i've been waiting to do that since 8th grade. five years later here i am, in love with this girl who was just on my lap.

she sits up standing up from the bed, still in her bra.

"ill be down in a minute" i say as she leaves the room

Natalie's POV:

i take the brownies out of the oven and put them on the stove. i cut them and see matt coming down the stairs.

"they're really good" i say as i take a bite out of one. matt walks around the island and puts one arm around my waist.
"i bet" he says as he takes one from the pan

it's kind of awkward considering what just happened and neither of us really know what to do  or say now.

a few minutes later we're sitting on the couch with music playing in the background, my head in his lap.
"matt" i ask kinda quietly
"what's up"
"i'm happy" i look up at him
"me too" he smiles and kisses my forehead
it's quiet for a second

"you know i've wanted to kiss you since as long as i can remember" he says.
"really?" i ask, actually surprised.
"yeah.. since i was 13 actually"
"13 matt?! why didn't you say anything?"
"i guess because chris always had a crush on you"
"what?!" i exclaim, "why am i only finding out about this now?"
"i don't think does anymore though" he says ignoring my question.

i cover my face with my hands in realization
"oh, my god." i say muffled
"matt you've always been so fucking special to me and i guess i figured out why"
"why?"

i look up at him
i'm blushing again, he's smiling
he bends down to kiss me again, as i lift my head because i was so low.

THE FUCKING FRONT DOOR OPENS
i sit up from my position as fast as i fucking can