Soul Ties (Discontinued)

Amanda POV

Authors Notes
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Guys I am sorry for the late update. Life is LIFEING and your girl is struggling, however I am trying my best to get you chapters more often.
Thank you for the continued support.
Love ya'll
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THIS BOOK IS NOT EDITED!
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I felt all my suppressed feelings bubbling to the surface and try as I might I could not stop it. Big fat hot tears stream down my face and cloud my vision as I made my way to the bathroom. Striping from my cloths I stepped into the shower as I sobbing  uncontrollably. As the warm water washed over my body i sank to the shower floor feeling as if my legs could no longer support me.
Images I had tried so hard to forget came racing back. I was screaming but my voice sounded unfamilar to my ears as if i was outside my body looking in. Its was like having a nightmare while you were wide awake.

I felt myself being lifted from the cold tiles and I knew it was Jason. I was still screaming and even tho I wanted to stop I could not. My heart was breaking all over again, it felt like someone had ripped my chest open and and smashed my heart intoa million tiny pieces. The dam of suppressed feelings had been broken and a great flood of emotion washed over me. Jason held me close and I clong to him for dear life as i cried and cried untill i had no tears left. My energy was spent and my head was pounding,I began drifing off to sleep with the sound of his heart beating in my ears like a luluby lulling me to sleep.

When I woke up from my sleep the pain in my head made its presence known. I was alone in the bed with the blanket wrapped righghtly around my body. I got up from the bed holding my head as I walked in the direction of the bathroom, I had to pee so bad. As soon as I flushed the toilet and washed my hands I opened the medicine cabinet and immediately saw a bottle of pain killers. I opened the bottle and popped two in my mouth swallowing with out water. I brushed my teeth and washed my face.  As I assesed my self in the mirror I saw that my hair was a mess, I needed to go to a hair dresser asap I was gonna get braids or a silk press. I walked into the room with all intentions of putting on cloths and heading down stairs to make something to eat.

As I pulled on a little pink dress I heard the bedroom door open. I turned to see Jason with a tray in his hand. He smiled at me and I smiled back at him. His face was so handsome and those big brown eyes that I always got lost in were locked on mine, I felt vulnerable under his gaze and I broke eye contact.

"Come let's eat on the balcony" he said as he walked pass me. I hurriedly put my hair in a  messy bun and applied a little lip gloss and went out to were he was seated.
I walked out and took a seat across from him. The view was lovely and the gentle breeze was refreshing. From where the sun sat in the sky I could tell it was late afternoon probably even evening. As I looked back to his face I saw him looking at me intensely and I instantly got nervous and looked away from him.

"You are so beautiful" he said. His voice was low and husky and the butterflies in my tummy went crazy as my clit throbbed. I smiled shyly and looked down at my hands on my lap whike squeezing my legs together tightly.

'Watch girl a blush'  the mad gyal ina mi head start tease mi.

Jason placed a plate of fruits in front of me along with a bottle of orange juice and a bottle of water. On the tray he had crackers and cheese as well as a jar of jam and a container with chocolate chip cookies. We talked while we ate, making plans to go shopping the next day. I told him I wanted to get my hair done and he said that Nick's girlfriend was a hairdresser and he would make the link so I could get it done. We were out on the balcony untill the sun began to set. We stood there watching it go down behind the hill as he wrapped me in a hug from behind. Standing there with his strong arms wrapped around me I felt a sense of safety I have not had sibe my dad passed. In this moment, in this space with this man I was truly happy.

Jason and I packed up the cups and dishes and took them to the kitchen. We put away the food that was not eaten and washed the dirty dishes and cups. As I was drying off the sink he wrapped his arms around my waist and squeezing me tightly. I could feel his erection on my back I turned around to face him, he dipped his head and started to kiss me passionately I returned the kiss matching his energy. He lifted  me up to sit on the sink, he lifted and dress and shifted my panty to the side. The moment his finger rubbed over my clit I moaned out in pleasure..

"Ahhhhh- Jason" I moaned as he rubbed my clit and sucked on my neck. He pulled down the top of my dress and my  left  breast was in his mouth in an instant while he carresed the right one.

"Ahhhh J" I whimpered from the pleasure coursing through my body. My pussy was dripping wet at this point and i really wanted him inside me. He stopped sucking my breast and rubbing my clit and picked me up off the counter, i wrapped my legs aroud his waist as he walked up the stairs.

In the bedroom he stripped both of us of all out cloths then he told me to lay down on the bed he came over me and positioning his body between my legs, we stared kissing and I could feel his dick at my entrance, he pushed into me slowly and my breath hitched and my eyes flew open as I felt his dick stretching me. He held my gaze as he began moving in and out of me. His movement sent a ripple of pleasure through my body and  I could not control the sounds that left my mouth. We were both moaning and groaning each other names unable to hide the pleasure we both felt. This felt different from all the other times we had sex, the pleasure was so intense it felt maddening. It was as if our souls had left the depths of our beings and were making love to each other. When I climaxed hard for the 3rd time squirting all over him I felt as if I had been transported to a different demention. He found his release shortly after shouting my name as he did. We were on the bed cuddled together tryong to even out our breathing. I was enjoying the after sex euphoric feeling that had my body tingling and a big smile on my face.
"I love you" he whispered in my hair.

'Did he just say I LOVE YOU'

The way he said  the words held so much emotion, I stayed quiet wondering if i had heard correctly. I few minutes passed before I decided to get up and go shower. I slipped out of his hold and went into the bathroom with his words playing in my head.
What was it about those words that had me feeling so scared and uneasy. I told myself I was just nervous because I had never had a relationship before but deep down i knew that was not the reason.
He came in to the shower shortly after me and we had sex yet again. It's as if we can nit keep our hands off each other. After our shower he pampered me  by drying my body, appling my skin care products, moisturizing my body adding deodorant to my under arms before dressing me in a sexy night dress and then he told me to get in bed. He ordered food for dinner and we had it while watching a move.
That night when I was in bed wrapped in his arms I prayed to God to let me keep this new found happiness.