snow and peppermints//chanlix

04

"you did amazing today...

the way you easily glided through the crystal clear chlorine water had me mesmerized. everyone else was underneath a trance as well as we watched you seamlessly take the lead over the others and win with a whole five seconds to spare

i felt such a rush of pride within me when i saw you come out of the water and yell in happiness when you glanced at the scoreboard and it said

CHRISTOPHER BAHNG—120.78—FIRST PLACE

for some reason i wanted to just rush out of the stands and give you the biggest hug and congratulate you..but i couldn't do that..and there were multiple reasons why i couldn't, shouldn't, and didn't do that

too many to list...

but at the moment i made up my mind..i would talk to you tonight. after everyone left i would catch you right before you went home and would simply say "good job on your win tonight" then leave. i was already on thin ice just by being here when i knew my mom had payed me off to someone tonight...

but i would do anything just to see you smile and do what you do best...

so i waited...and waited...and waited...

until everyone had left and you were the last person there....

or so i thought.

you had your bag slung over you shoulder and you looked good enough to eat if i do say so myself, but right as i was about to do something that would change everything for me...

a girl came out from no where..

and i watched as she ran up to you and embraced you. you were shocked but happy i could tell. i didn't want to overthink it and be extra because she could be his sister..or cousin righ-

but my heart stopped in my chest when i saw her reach up on her tiptoes and kiss you..no this wasn't a chaste kiss on the cheek or anything..this was full blown kiss on the lips..

my heart broke..of course this was my fault though...

this is what i get for falling in love with the biggest homophobic man at this school..

i don't know what i thought..i thought i could
possibly change you...maybe you wouldn't be so dense with some knowledge..

but i was wrong..and stupid...and no i was the one left with a bleeding heart because of a one-sided love..

i didn't bother to stick around..i was already in trouble and this little scene was like a cherry on top...

but i wish you and your girlfriend the best though..

channie."

-LFYB