snow and peppermints//chanlix

09

chan pov
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i was confused when i found a black notebook in my bag after a meet. i looked om the front cover for the owner so i could return it or something but there wasn't anything there.

i knew it wasn't okay to just read about people's personal life..and whatever they wrote in this book wasn't any of his business..but the flourished english handwriting tempted him every time he glanced at it, and after debating about it for nearly an hour he decided to put his morale's aside..

so he dived into the world of that diary, his heart beating faster when he saw his name and realized that this person was in love..with him out of all the people. he had no idea if these entries were recent or not because there was never a date, but what intrigued him the most was the signature at the end.

four simple letter that he wished he knew..LFYB..he tried to think of anyone he knew with those initials and he thought about one boy...who he had fallen for a while ago but his intials were just LF..and he hadn't seen the cute, small boy in months. which broke him immensely because he was sure he loved him..

he wouldn't be his first love, like the boy who wrote in this journal..but true love can take over first love. he felt guily when he saw that the boy knew he was a homophobe..but he didn't know why..

chan wasn't actually homophobic, he just acted like he hated gays so he would fit in..after moving here from daegu he was an outcast at first until the popular group added him to their cult and he went along with their thoughts and words...too scared to speak up..

so he sat there in his room and read the journal, stopping at some points to regain his composure before continuing..but time came to a stop when he came upon the end of the last entry...

lee felix yongbok...

no..that couldn't possibly...was this the journal of the boy he loved..the boy who had seemingly disappeared into thin air one day..

how could he not tell that felix loved him just as much as he loved felix...but now he was moving on..and moving to australia.

wait-

chan jumped out of bed and went to his desk, glancing at his calendar and his suspicions were confirmed..today was the twenty-seventh..

today felix was leaving.

chan threw on his sneakers and a coat, not bothering to change out of his sweatpants for fix his messy hair or hide his eye bags. he couldn't let felix leave...without telling him how he felt about him.

the sun was slowly rising and he ignored his parent's questions as he threw the door open and nearly hit their mailbox backing out of the driveway and speeding to incheon international airport. the one closest to him and he hoped he wasn't too late...

he arrived thiry minutes later and he didn't care about the looks he was getting because of his disheveled appearance, the only thing on his mind was felix and felix only.

he looked around for the boy's long blonde hair in the mass of people but it was near impossible. chan started to feel a bad feeling in his stomach but he ignored it and he followed his instincts, breaking into a run to a different terminal.

it was less crowded here and he looked around for the boy again but there was no sign of felix...chan was panting from the run over and his heart was slowly sinking to his feet as he thought about so many worst case scenario's..

then out of the corner of his eye...he saw a flash of blonde hair. he spun to around and saw the familiar figure and hair of the boy. "felix!" he shouted as loud as he could and ignored the people whispering as he ran to the boy who continued walking as if he hadn't heard him.

"lee felix!"

time seemed to slow as felix abruptly stopped in his tracks and turned around, the face chan loved more than anything looking at him in confusion, disbelief, and shock.

chan ran to him and felix expected him to stop but he didn't, he just ran straight into felix, wrapping his arms around the boy tightly, as if he was afraid he would leave him..which he was about to..

"c-chan..w-why are you here..?" felix said in confusion and the older buried his face into his chest.

"don't leave me felix...please...don't leave me," chan said as tears welled in his eyes at the thought. "i know i've been too scared to say it...b-but felix i love you...i've loved you ever since i first saw you eating by yourself at lunch and you looked like an angel sent from heaven itself." he said while looking into the youngers eyes.

felix was shocked...he didn't know what to say at all...

"is this a dream...am i awake...t-this can't truly be happeni-"

he was cut off by chan's lips suddenly on his his and if it were anyone else he would've shoved them away..but it was chan...the boy he was convinced he couldn't have...

chan held felix's face in his hands as the younger melted at his touch, the kiss was filled with both spoken and unspoken..deeper emotions both couldn't describe with words..

felix heard his plane being called to board, woman and children first, distantly in the background but he didn't want to stop kissing chan...he had waited for this for so long...

chan pulled away first and felix didn't even catch his own breath before saying, "chan, i love you too..i've loved you ever since i saw you too...you looked so good that i couldn't help but fall...but don't you have a girl-"

"no. shi-yeon is not my girlfriend. she's this annoying fangirl of mine that just so "happened" to be there that night when you saw her kissing me. she kissed me and you must have not seen when i pushed her away and i later reported her for sexual harassment..but felix i'm not a homophobic. in fact i'm a raging homosexual..i just said dumb stuff so i could fit in..which i shouldn't have done," chan said while holding the youngers smaller hand.

felix was once again in shock at everything he was learning and he was nearly speechless, "chan...i can't believe this..i can't believe this is real..." chan smiled softly and said, "well believe it felix...because it is."

felix looked out the window and saw white flurries falling from the sky...snow. it was november nearly december but it was already snowing.

"THIS IS A MESSAGE REGARDING THE CURRENT WEATHER SITUATION. ALL FLIGHTS CURRENTLY BOARDING AND BOARDING TODAY AND TOMORROW HAVE BEEN CANCELED FOR SAFTY REASONS. YOU WILL BE REFUNDED OR YOU CAN RESCHEDULE YOUR FLIGHT."

felix looked at chan who looked so happy he could burst. it seemed like the universe was trying to make him feel like he was in a k-drama because suddenly chan grabbed him by the wrist and ran, towing felix behind him how was trying not to fall because of the olders speed.

the cold air made his nose turn red almost immediately and he felt snow landing softly on his body. "my flight is canceled...but i still have to go to australia..chan...but i want to try...i want to give us a chance. i know that long distance is super hard but i'm willing to tr-"

suddenly his feet weren't on the ground and everything was blurry as felix was spun around by chan who was laughing happily.

"FELIX I LOVE YOU!" he shouted for all the world to hear. "CHAN I LOVE YOU!" felix responded just as loudly...

chan attached his lips to felix's again and he ignored the cold...the warmth inside him was enough to keep him warm for years...