Bitten: Thirsted by Desire

When tragedy strikes

San's pov:

I don't know how long I've been running for, was it minutes? Hours? I don't know.
I constantly hear Wooyoung's worried voice in my head, bagging me to come back and telling me nothing I heard was the truth.

I know I shouldn't have run away like a coward and left him alone in the woods, but I can't trust myself of what I'll become or what I'll do. I know he's looking for me, probably following my scent which is why I pick up speed even more. He can't see me like this not now and not ever again.

With every following fast step I feel a stinging burning sensation that travels from my feet all the way up to my legs. My lung hurts like hell, the pain is so intense that my vision blackens more and more threatening to take me out.

I run through the forest like a crazy person in the middle of the night with no destination, because I'm running away.

Running away from myself and the intrusive thoughts that hunt me down, that try to make me to the monster again that I once was.

Heavily breathing I come to a stop at an old oak that seems to have lived for a very long time already, judging by the incredible hight and the massive roots that imerge from the leave covered lightly foggy ground.

I take a seat on one of the big roots and look far into the distance while I knead my thighs a little bit to lessen the throbbing burning pain I'm feeling.

The sky already turned slightly orange and the moon was already long gone, indicating that a new day was soon to approach.

*Hyung! Please stop running, I know you and because I know you I know you're not quite monster! We will find a way to make it stop!*

I shake my head slightly when I feel guilt creeping into every fibre of my body. I look down at my blood covered hands that slightly tremble wether from running or from guilt and fear, I can't tell for sure.

I hear a laugh in my mind, my laugh. It's not my usual laugh, but one that causes cold shivers down my spine. It's clowning me and mocking me. Making my mind spiral.

"STOP!" I scream out helpless and on the verge of going insane.

Funny isn't it? He's worried. About us, the ruthless killing machine. We know better, there's no such thing as cure for us.

I cover my hears fear and despise of my own voice. "No no no! This is a lie!" I whimper feeling hot tears streaming down my face.

You know how its gonna end. We were made this way, embrace the darkness and joy that you're feeling deep inside. Be the Son you were destinied to be.

"I'm nothing like him!" I call out in a stern voice and in no time  I'm back on my feet.

*San, are you there? We're worried about you!*
I hear Felix's voice in my mind.

I pace up and down, still covering my ears.

He told the others about what we did. They will hate you too.

"They won't! I did what we had to do! We had no choice." I call out feeling burning hot anger flooding me.

We already discussed this. We didn't have to kill them. You were loving the mess you created, the blood, the screams, seeing their body lose their life. They're bood was tasty wasn't it?

Memories of me flood my mind, I see that one vampire clearly. I ripped his throat out and no matter how much I'm telling myself I had to do it, I can't deny that a part of me enjoyed it. Killing him, drinking his blood.

I close my eyes, fear, guilt, shame, hot anger, everything comes crashing down to me pushing me into a place of no return.

"Shut the fuck up!" I scream out while the first rays of the sunrise flood the forest into a mystical and quiet gloom.

Birds hastily fly out of the trees, seemingly startled by my loud outburst.

"San! Wait for me I'm almost there!" I hear wooyoung scream faintly somewhere in the distance.

I hear that mocking laugh again.

Ups.... he found us. Use that anger, we can end him! He won't suspect shit.

He laughing gets louder and louder, blocking all senses and all of the sanity I have left.

I'm scared, scared that that voice controls me. Scared that I slip again and this time it won't be our enemies but my best friend, my partner in crime, Wooyoung.

My heart starts racing and I run again, even faster unable to think clearly.

The end of the forest seems closer and closer as I pick up even more speed, the laugh in my mind as clear as my own thoughts.

The trees lessen a bit, allowing more light to flood my surrounding. I see a forest street approaching me in heavy speed, and once I reach the street a bright light blinds me.

My feet apuptly stop moving, because I know what this means, even through the wild emotions and laughing and the spiralling thoughts I know I have no time to react. I lift my arms and close my eyes, as I wait for the deadly impact that's about to hit me any second now.

I hear a loud honk of the car and open my eyes, everything happens way to quickly for me. I hear the devastating screech of the breaks as the wheels loose grip and the car breaks out, it races towards me sideways the loud screech numbing my ears and threatening to make me deaf.

The car lingers for a second before it looses it's balance completely, in the next second the car flips and moves past me with a loud mechanical noise.

As soon as it comes to a complete halt, wooyoung appears out of nowhere.

I still stand in the middle of the road, paralysed and too shocked to register anything. I look over to the car, fuel runs out of it and heavy smoke leaks out of every part of the Black Jeep.

I get back to senses when wooyoung runs past me and rips the passenger door out with immense force. The door flies through the air and falls somewhere between the trees.

"I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to-"  I start to say quietly for the second time today, all noise and confusion gone for a split second.

Wooyoung crouches down and a loud bone shattering scream fills the air. Panic takes a hold of me as I now too run to the demolished car next to me.

Nothing could have prepared me for what I saw next.

A single tear falls down my face, as I drop down to my knees in defeat.

The girls inside of the car are no one other than Ruby and Naomi.