Blessings

Hi

It's been 2 days since Trey and I had sex. Today it's Levi's 5th birthday and he invited all of us. I got ready in a sundress and dressed Viola in one too. My ma was already there to help. My pops was getting late stuff for them. So it was just me at the house. The girls are coming too but they might be late. I got my gifts and got Viola and headed out.

There was already little kids running around in they swimsuits. Terrence helped me get the gifts as I grabbed Poochie and her bag.

Can you believe Trey ma still don't like me since she found us together. I really don't care that she doesn't. I want this day to go smooth. The party was set up in the backyard but I went inside to see everybody.

I walked past people I didn't know telling them hello then I found my ma and gave her Viola stuff. "Where Levi?" I asked. "Outside in the pool with his friends." she said fixing Viola's headband. "Look who it is." his ma said fake smiling.

"Hello." I said giving her a hug. "Trey is on the grill." She said. "Oh okay I'm not here for him so." I said laughing. "Surprising." I chuckled a little to not go off. I put Viola on the floor and she walked while I held her hand.

"Mama!" She cried once we got to the back stairs. "You can do it mami." I said. She put down her short little legs and almost fell. I picked her up and started cleaning her face. All you heard was her crying loud as fuck.

Levi ran to us and hugged me. "Why she crying auntie?" He asked. "She almost fell but she okay." I said pinching his nose.

"Daddy looking." He whispered running back to the kids area. I looked over and him and his buddies were looking. I just fucked this man and now I have to act like we're cool. I'm not cool at all.

She was still crying! Trey grabbed her from my arms and threw her in the air. She instantly started laughing. Of course his girl and her friends were all sitting around looking at him and I.

"I could've gotten yall." He said giving me a hug. "We're good." I said awkwardly hugging him back. "Wow." he said looking at me. "Its like that?" I guess he forgot I love him but can't be with him. I wasn't about to cry infront of him. I yanked Poochie from him and went back inside. I gave her to my ma and went to the bathroom.

"Someone's in here." I said as someone knocked on the door. "Come out so we can talk." My ma said. I wiped my tears and fixed my makeup. We sat on the front porch on the swing seat. "I love you darling and you need to start telling me stuff." she said. "Ma I'm not going to talk about my sex life with you." I said chuckling a little.

"You sleeping with Trey is my business. He ha-" "Ma calm down I'm not sleeping with him. We're just friends!" I exclaimed. When I said that Sade came out with her friend.

"Hey baby." my ma said giving her a hug. "How you been?" Sade asked. "Good good how about you?"

"Raising the boys,work,and school." she said. They talked some more then she looked at me. "She's so pretty." she said to Viola bending down at her level. "Hey pretty girl." She hugged my knees acting shy.

"Now she want to act shy." I said picking her up. Her friend looked me up and down and rolled her eyes. Shit I'll be salty too if I had to greet the girl that stole my bestfriend man. I didn't even steal him he was vulnerable anyways. She gave me a fake smile and went back inside.

"Fake ass." I mumbled. "Yall cool?" Ma asked. "No!" I said fast. "Wow, yall need to sit down and talk." she said. Why? Not like I have a child with Trey too. The food was ready so everybody packed in the kitchen then went outside to eat. Where are the girls???? I sat with my mom because the only other seat was by his girl and I wasn't doing that. She been mean mugging me the whole time.

I was feeding lil mama when Trey came over. "Can we talk." he said. "Okay." I said looking up at him. "Alone please." he said looking serious. I gave my ma Viola and got up. Swear all eyes were on us two. He grabbed my waist and put me infront of him. "Trey can you come here." Sade said jumping up. He sighed and went towards her. She whispered something in his ear and he started laughing. "Chill freaky ass." He said walking back towards me.

Guess she tired making me jealous or some bullshit. We went into the boys playroom and he grabbed me.

"I'm getting deployed." he said. My heart dropped. "Where?" I asked. "Japan." he said. I pushed his arm away and walked away. "I'm playing damn come here." he said grabbing me fast. "Don't play like that idiot." I said wiping my tears. "You was gon miss daddy I know." he said biting his lip.

"But for real I wanted to tell you thank you for everything. Yall put this party together. And for coming! I know Sade here and my girl and it's probably hard for you but the love you have for Levi is obviously real. He's lucky to have you as a auntie." he said. "Its no problem. Anything for my babies." I said giving him a hug. Guess we were hugging a little bit too long cause his ma grabbed him.

"Your beautiful girlfriend is outside carrying your baby and you in here hugging on her." she said looking disgusted. "Hold up ma chill out." he said grabbing her. He lucky I immatured and changed my beating ass ways. Plus that's his mama. She started yelling at him for messing with me. "Get over it! We've had sex before. Sorry you had to walk in on us but I can't change the fact you did." I yelled walking out. I told my ma I was leaving and she said okay. I grabbed Viola and found Levi. I gave him a kiss then told him I'll see him later.

I was really sad because why doesn't she like me? I did nothing to her but love her son. "Mamama." she cried as I fastened her in her carseat. I felt hands around my waist. "Go Trey." I said trying to push his arms away. "You leaving?" "Yes I'm leaving I don't belong here." I said tearing up.

"She hates me and that's her mom like that's not okay. So imma just go. She blames me for Sade and you breaking up and everything! I'll go so you can enjoy your family." I pushed him back.

"You are my family sweetheart." he said grabbing my hand. "Trey!" His girlfriend called out as she stood at the door with her hand on her pregnant stomach. "That's your family." I said.

He opened the door for me and I got in. "Call me damn." he said. "No I'm not calling,texting, or anything with you." I said as he closed the door.

   "You serious?" He asked. "So serious,if you want to see Viola go through my ma or daddy." I said turning my car on.

    "It's like that?" He asked. "YES ITS LIKE THAT TREY! I'm not about to act like I'm happy for you when I'm not. I always dreamed of being with you but now you having your third child,in the military,and probably going to marry her. Plus your ma and sister hate me for reasons I don't know. I wish you the best honestly but I won't be your side hoe."

   He reached in the window and wiped my tears. "We done? Not even friends?" He asked. "Look where being just friends got us. I'm not taking any more heart break. I still want to see the boys but us two just won't work." I said wiping tears.

    It was silent then I seen his girlfriend come behind him and kiss his neck. That made me so mad. I felt stupid as shit! How some lil bitch going to come along and take him when I was here first? Probably how Sade felt.

    "Aw what's wrong?" She asked. "I was just leaving." I said giving her a smile. "Can I see lil mama first?" He asked. I put the car in park and he opened my back door. He lend over her car seat and gave her kisses. When he closed the door she started screaming.

   "Awe!!" His girlfriend gasped. "She loves her some Trey boogie." she said squeezing his arm. "She'll calm down when I start driving. Well see yall later." I said.

    "Aight baby girl." he said hitting the top of my car roof. The way his girl looked I knew she didn't like that. I drove home and cried my eyes out.

   Nothing like being in love but can't be with the person.