The Squad Behind Us [Attack On Titan]

Kyle Gordon- Part One

Levi brought the journal out from the drawer, pushing away the annoying paperwork in the process. He often wondered how he ended up with so much paperwork in the first place, it's not like he was the commander of the whole entire Regiment, yet it was like he had more than Erwin! He looked at it, studying the stars closely. Upon closer inspection, he saw that there were letters within the stars. They were the letters K-Y-L-E-G. The G at the end most likely stood for Gordon.

Levi opened up the cover to look inside. Notes were scrawled inside in sloppy handwriting that looked like a mixture of cursive and print. It was a little bit hard to read, but Levi could manage. He began reading.

It seems as if I really can't talk to anyone about what I think. I mean, I don't really want people to know what I think anyways. It would ruin the reputation I've spent some time building up. People think I'm some sort of cold-hearted bastard that doesn't care about anyone. Well, that's not entirely true. I care about some people, just not everyone I see. The people that really matter are the one I see everyday, and sorry, but if I don't talk to you on a regular basis then I'm probably going to act like a jerk to you.

How to say this... I guess I'll just say it plain and simple. I've joined the Scout Regiment. Though a dangerous career path, it's fulfilling to say the least. I see people's lives ruined by the titans, and I think that's unfair. When you become a soldier, you're there to protect the civilians who can't fight for themselves. There are some people who join the Military Police that's made almost entirely out of slackers. I say almost because I have a friend who chose to join so that they could possibly fix it. She'll have to stay there for a while so that she can move up in the ranks, but she's dead set on changing them. I don't see why. It's not like they're extremely important. The citizens know that if they started acting up in these confined walls, then we'll destroy each other. No one benefits from that.

I'm not looking forward to meeting my squad. I don't work well with others. Whenever I'm working, the other people just get in my way and become people I have to protect. It's technically their fault for not being good, but I guess I shouldn't hold that against them. Everybody has to start from somewhere, right? I guess I was just naturally born good.

Now, you might be thinking I have kind of a big ego, but let me tell you that you don't know what you're talking about. It's not that I hold myself up higher than the others just, because of my own ignorance, but because it's the truth.

What is he talking about? Levi thought. He didn't think that you should hold yourself above others any time, even if it was the truth you shouldn't automatically think you're better than them just because they're not as good with their skills. You should judge them by their actions and character.

I hope I don't die on the expeditions, and I hope that no one I know dies either. I hope the people in my squad aren't complete assholes, nor do I wish them to be completely happy and smily and overly-optimistic. I don't know, I just want them to be. Does that make sense? It doesn't matter, good bye.

On to the next entry.

I met my squad today. I got some overly-optimistic, too-nice-for-their-own-good people. There's five of us: 3 guys and 2 girls. There's Cameron and another girl that I think is called Jessica (she would barely speak to anyone), then for the guys there's me, Blake, and Kido. I saw some filth on Kido's hands and he actually tried to give me a handshake. I, out of habit, immediately told him not to touch me with his filthy hands. It doesn't seem all that unreasonable to me. You should always make sure you're clean no matter what, otherwise it just gets nasty.

I didn't really speak to anyone, I just let them do their own thing. They looked like a pretty good team that could work together, except I don't want to work with them. Even though I never talked to any of them outright, I did eavesdrop on a couple of their conversations to get their overall character. Blake seems like a completely normal, extremely nice, and extremely happy guy. He wasn't so happy that it was annoying, which was good. Jessica is so shy that it's a burden. Even if I wanted to talk to her, it looks as if she doesn't like talking to boys, because she wouldn't even talk to Blake. She only spoke to Cameron. Cameron's an interesting one. She seems to think that dying in battle outside the walls is honorable, glorious, and fulfilling. She really does pledge herself to the state and looks as if she's got real passion for her line of work. Kido isn't too bad, I mean besides from the not washing his hands thing. He seems nice, and I can tell that he's especially fond of Cameron. If I remember correctly, I think they were close friends back in training. None of them really know me, and they don't have to.